STARSEEDRESISTANCE - Nihilist Embracement. A targeted individual "super soldier" milab resource site, a resource for those under directed energy assault in mkultra programs, as this evil planet is extinguished, largely by the BLACK OPS American super soldier groups that piss in the Universe's face with their barbaric butchering mentacide programs.
** Everything on this site is a work of fiction. 

Blog starts about halfway down the page in right hand column.
updated on; 4-27-15

Seal captain is a huge rapist. He likes to rape women who've had abortions. Those who have heard of all the sex milabs get... well in this program under this guy these are the main targets.

Right now (night of 4-27) they're impersonating me big time for a frame-up AI HE report to higher command. How? By having somebody else 'be me' - electronic AI clone impersonation. They do this a lot to fake out higher command on what they're really doing to me.

Has anyone at AC figured out that they've simply swapped networks between AC and the local SEAL team to make things look like I've actually been under AC handlers - so they can say I'm really nuts, that I'm not under RNM, synthetic telepathy - heavy neural mkultra interaction (torture). NO. HELL NO. They will always try to hide me from ANYBODY else. They can't let anybody have access to me. It's the same handlers. There's about 18 of them total.

Probably around zero chance anybody in air intel will read this page, that's how pathetic they are. But if they do, has it ever occurred to you how insanely problematic this program with me is?, How toxic it is? How many contradictions have you gotten from the psycho rapist SEAL captain? How can I be crazy, totally insane and be used in a pyschic program?


More coming... 

This idiot seal won't stop the torture. The synthetic telepathy and nightmares ets were supposed to have been gone long ago. When is he going to be removed? I want to be back under an AC team.

I can't take it, too much.

The evil retarded pussy who runs this small sick perverted black ops military cult --- well he lives close by. Anyone who is scared, concerned etc about the extrmeme power he has and wants to learn more or stop it....

Does anyone in Air Command actually work in "Intelligence"?
Air Command has been fed more  BS - more faked reports on my condition. Somebody needs to get through to SENIOR COMMAND - and tell them to read the necks of the SEAL commander I've described above. THEY NEED TO QUIT LISTENING TO THE SAME OFFICERS INTERNALLY AND IN THE FIELD HERE. THEY need to STEP IN with a NEW team AND get the truth.
It's just amazing, he's creating a new hacked report now, cobbling together 'my thoughts'. Editing and spinning it like a record producer. I can hear him constantly saying 'go back, take that out, take this out...'.  This is what happens every time. They spend up to a full day - but usually they need to capture everything right away to show them the state I'm in at the time I publish something. SENIOR COMMAND falls for it everytime. They need a BRAND NEW INTERNAL team who aren't friends with the existing resources.

I want special asylum, frequency protection, a null neural ip address - protection. I want to be a "set - aside".  I simply want my freedom. You know my deal. Neutrality.


Who are the most powerful people on this planet? The tiny number of SEAL Human Effects MKUltra handlers who run this 'milab' project. There are only about 20 of them now. They effectively conrol all of US 'Air Command' and higher command including Pentagon. They run their own little fiefdom and do so fully unchecked. NEVER are they actually investigated or even checked up on. NEVER. Their faked bio-mentation reports are all that's required. I was supposed to be off the RNM, synthetic telepathy back in October 2014. They pulled massive shit to prevent that, including telling higher command that they're still using me in psychic projects. Why? To cover up the massive torture they've done. They don't want me exposed to Air Command. They have to keep me sequestered behind a makeshift firewall. THEY FORCED ME AND STILL FORCE ME TO PUBLISH THIS WEBSITE. I WANT IT DOWN AND ALWAYS HAVE WANTED IT DOWN. I WAS FORCED TO BE A WHISTLEBLOWER. I JUST WANT THIS SHIT TURNED OFF. I WANT THESE EVIL TOTURE CREEPS - WHO HAVE UNSPEAKABLE POWER OVER THE REST OF THE MILITARY STRUCTURE - TO BE PULLED OFF OF ME. THE MAIN EVIL PUSSY WHO LIVES NEARBY LIES AND PRESENTS RIDICULOUS FAKED REPORTS - TO COVER UP 3+ YEARS OF EXTREME TORTURE. ANYONE INTERESTED IN DETAILS OF AIR COMMAND'S SPECIFIC PROTOCOL OF SYNTHETIC TELEPATHY, KEEP READING THIS PAGE...LOTS OF DETAILS BELOW.



I'm on a heavy 'torture to suicide TI platform/program'. Why? Here's the thing. The synthetic telepathy and heavy remote neural monitoring / conrol was supposed to stop back in October 2014. There's no 'psychic research' program - that's a lie and cover. Why am I still under intense RNM, electronic torture and synthetic telepathy? Why is this site still published, who's actually behind it? It's not me. I hate it and want it down. I'm forced to do it. Why am I still a TI? When is the RNM, syntel etc going to be removed or scaled back to how to the days of the 'grays and reptilian' junk? Why has NOTHING changed?

Another week in hell, never getting out, never even getting the RNM etc scaled back. Same torture team. Some milab program. Others get let out or at least put on a back burner, basically left alone. Why am I a hardcore TI? This system is a proven failure. Why is this still going on?



You are being taken for a ride. You are really a targeted individual used by the military or other clandestine gov't group in a black ops project. GET THE FACTS.  This is how my nightmare started. Get out of it now, do everything you can immediately to make it stop. There are NO Grays, Reptilians, Nordics etc. Only extremely creepy sadistic humans running these operations. Get out. When you start to research what's happening to you you will find basically a little family of loonies who buy the scam and talk about their 'alien hybrid' families, who are proud of their 'alien heritage' and 'abductions'. They are MIND CONTOL victims and so are you. THINK. Read this site and Learn. Also recommended

Psychotronic Weapons, HAARP etc    Also links to extensive Chemtrail videos and loads of related facts. Enjoy

A guy I know went to DC and had massive chemtrails sprayed DIRECTLY over him everywhere he went - ON THE SPOT.  Including the most spectacular spaying of all, right over the Capitol Building. I won't mention his name. He captured lots of footage of it.  "Look ahead the skies are clear but right over me we've got massive chemtrails. X minutes later... ok now we're standing were the skies were clear as documented a short while ago on video. Now let's look up at the sky directly above.... it's now COATED with chemtrails."  Maybe you'll see him on Project Camelot or something one day telling the story in full.  Hey do you have chemtrail pics over the Capitol Building that match these? If so send them to your nearest Air Force base to add to the collection.


Dr. John Hall's letter to the United Nations on directed energy (frequency) torture weapons used against the global population:

I am writing you on the behalf of victims both in the United States and abroad. As you are aware, many revelations surrounding the National Security Agency’s extensive electronic dragnet have recently come to light through released records by the intelligence insider Mr. Edward Snowden. During the course of the LIBE Committee hearings even more first-hand testimony was heard from other former NSA insiders regarding the extent of NSA privacy invasion and lack of oversight regarding their methods of data collection. Their statements begin to come very close to an issue that those of us in the medical community in the United States and abroad have been keenly watching for several years now.

Over the last decade we have seen a sharp rise in the number of people coming forward with complaints of non-consensual experimentation with electromagnetic weapons designed to target both electronic hardware and the human central nervous system. While this was typically disregarded as mental illness in the past, the total global population voicing these identical complaints has exponentially grown to numbers that can no longer be attributed to delusional disorder, schizophrenia or any other described mental illness. You may be unaware that the safeguards against experimenting on the public without their consent in the United States are very lax and are included in legislation referred to as The Common Rule which is the Federal Policy regarding human subjects protection. It is written with several loopholes for the allowance of non-consensual experimentation, mostly by intelligence agencies. Hence, we have seen the necessity for the Bioethics Commission hearings in the United States after it was brought to light that Guatemalan prisoners were experimented on with contagions by the National Institutes of Health. During the course of the Bioethics Hearings, their directive was to determine if any other non-consensual experimentation was ongoing in the United States or abroad. At each of the four meetings there was included a public forum for the committee to address concerns by the public at large. Over one hundred individuals were in attendance at each of the four meetings voicing complaints of exposure and experimentation with electromagnetic weapons technologies. The effects of these technologies on the human body can only be described as torture.

Several years ago another National Security Agency insider, John St. Clair Akwei, described in detail the frequencies used by the NSA and other intelligence agencies to access and influence the human body and nervous system in his civil action against the NSA. His descriptions of technologies used to track, monitor and alter a subject’s perceptions, moods and motor control are similar to the complaints we are hearing today from victims alleging non-consensual experimentation and torture. Moreover, Vladimir Putin, in a speech in 2012, admitted that Russia is following suit in funding development of weapons that will attack the human central nervous system. His defense minister, Anatoly Serdyukov, described the weapons as directed energy weapons, wave energy weapons, genetic weapons and psychotronic weapons based upon new physics principles. Obviously, Russia intends to go down the same path of directed energy weapons research that the United States has long been on. The unfortunate truth regarding this type of technology is the ease with which it can be used remotely and non-consensually on the public without the recommended safeguards of an Institutional Review Board or any appreciable ethical oversight. In the United States this research is typically done clandestinely under the guise of national security concerns just as the NSA electronic data mining was done which is currently being covered in the LIBE Committee.

Over the last decade I have consulted with thousands of people in the United States complaining of exposure and experimentation with electromagnetic weapons technologies which include, but are not limited to, complaints of mood alteration, heart palpitations, involuntary body movements, severe headaches, blurred vision, burns to the skin, non-consensual micro-chipping and neurocognitive perturbation. It is my belief, based upon former and current publicly released government research documents as well as victims complaints of torture, that this technology is being used in a non-consensual manner on the global public.

I would like to express my deepest gratitude to you for meeting with our representative from the International Center Against Abuse of Covert Technologies and taking the time out of your busy schedule to hear these complaints and read my letter. On behalf of the whole of humanity, I sincerely hope that these technologies will eventually be addressed in the Subcommittee on Human Rights of the European Parliament, as the use of these currently can only be described as torture and dehumanizing.

Thank You,

Dr. John R. Hall, D.O

A couple descriptions of mental torture (courtesy of other TI's) via the same torture to suicide AI system I am on. 

"Like a nail being slowly hammered the head gets beat. Beaten and beaten till you can't make it. Your brain is being destroyed, bit by bit. Noise in your ears seems to come from contact with microwaves. Implants that respond to microwaves.The RNA structure of your brain is being changed by microwaves, slowly but surely. The clever hypnotist has a hold of you like a wash rag. he'll ring you out till your used up! WELCOME TO HELL .."

This is the most sophisticated form of "psychological murder" one can think of, and is used to threaten me criminally and to destroy my brain and nerves intentionally & completely to a vegetative state..To begin with, this was draconian violation of privacy, life and liberty,& in fact, in a nutshell, in one fell swoop, it criminally violates all human rights that a human being is entitled to.

Even though it sounds weird to the common people, it’s a fact that, I get tortured the most by faceless voices inside my head (and I'm not a psychiatric patient), that continuously negates & manipulate my thought process and weakens and exhausts my brain and nerves through remotely operated technologies as mentioned above. My mind is always a battlefield in here, and my brain just "gasps" every second to take a breath and it seems like that these are just suffocating my brain to “death”. I remain helplessly mentally handicapped in this condition. The perpetrators do it intentionally and increase the severity when it counts the most. They don’t even let me sleep at night. This pushes me towards acute depression, mental retardation and insanity almost. This is so intolerable that someone who has not gone through it can’t even imagine. This continuous torture on my brain & nerves may result in permanent insanity, brain embolism, cerebral hemorrhage etc.


Are you a TI and looking for help? Search on this page "Tips for Targeted Individuals" and go straight to that section. Physical wounds heal. Mental wounds don't. The first step in healing is to get away from the perpetrators. Under electronic neural torture you cannot do this. Unless you are extremely lucky and you are released from the program, all you can do is get therapy in the form of support from other torture victims suffering like you '.

This site is not about happiness and sunshine. You should be prepared to be a bit depressed or angry if you venture into it. The title description in the banner is accurate word for word.
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Military: Who exactly is in charge here? Apparently, that's the question. Why is this still on when you ordered it off (if you did)? Turn it off and...

I have no beef with HQ.

Apparently, if they canned 'Eric' I'd be free?

Jan 13 4PM THEY DIDN'T GO. Don't know what to do. Hospital time?

Jan 12, 6am. 'Eric' the roach controller Capt totally knocked me out late last night with heavy stuff. He has no other teams now except for the inmates who are online right now. He may be occasionally getting a few of the old original personnel as a favor but that's it. I'm sure he's violating NSA guidelines and there are SEVERE SECURITY ISSUES. I've been told via syntel before that he violates NSA guidelines. This is a total joke, failure. He's just a desperate rat trying to cover up, and has to keep me contained and hidden as best he can. He's causing even more psych damage to me trying to make me forget events of the past 5 days by just beating the fuck out of my brain electronically, changing my mental states to very dull lobotomized states like you change a TV channel.

Jan 11 3:25pm, the evil desperate roach, 'Eric', is at it again as he has been all day, trying to rig up fake impressions of me.

Morning started off with an artificial good mood, putting me into an airhead state, with emotions and most of my mind offloaded. Syntel never stopped.

He won't go unless HQ forcefully makes him.  I know one of his kid's names (100% positive on that) and I know the sudbdivision he lives in (if he didn't move).  How Clever! What a fun game.  I also know what he looks like. On that note, I'll be getting an artist to sketch out his mugshot pic and I'll post it.  He has a tattoo on his back on his left side above his waist. I believe it is a knife or spear-shaped.  Secrecy is key to these agents. His is blown now. This thing is like a pathetic car with two spare tires on it and smoke pouring out of the engine limping along, sounding like a dying elephant. It keeps going like this, why? What's his motivation to not turn it off?

His pathetic charades are a joke. I've started calling him 'Sir Mix-a-lot' like a RAP record producer that mixes up different ripped-off riffs into a songs. That's all he does all day. I visualize a large roach standing over a mixing control board plying his trade in creating the desired framed-up work.


Jan 10
11:34pm. well I took the whole site down but what a surprise... the man never left! Instead he started freaking out. He actually said I 'took him on' which is his term for challenging him. That's right, taking this site down made him mad, got him in trouble, got him scared. Of what? He gave me some death threats. The only thing that changed was that he started panicking. He tried to play more games with the interrogator, snagging any of my thought content he could at times to twist around. And that's it. So there you go. Site was down for 30 minutes. I obeyed per his offer at 10:25 but instead I got death threats for it. This guy's a Captain? So it goes back online now. I'm sad. This is sad.

10:25pm the man on the line just said take it down then we'll turn it off, so I'm taking it down now..

 woke up to another creepy synthetic dream involving threats and a pounding headache which is worsening.

Jan 9. 11:12pm he's still at it, all day long. Capt turned my mind into self-sabotauging contrary sewer from constant synthetic telepathy and massive paranoia, framing me and getting me to act for the system. I am totally schizo in my thought processes. I immediately have contradicting evasive thoughts. Random thoughts are junk, they aren't valid statements. For example, a 'what if' kind of thought, a troubleshooting thought. He will take this and present it as your position on something, grandstand like it's an actual statement and carved in stone.  It's scary to think anyone actually believes this crap he slops together. Here's an idea. Get the fuck out of my mind you slimy perverted roach. This desperate rat takes fragments of thoughts in any context and presents them as 'evidence' to help cover himself.  He's scrambling with these tactics right now. How about facts.

More staged 'show and tell' for HQ yesterday. In reality, nothing's changed. He turned down the volume on the syntel and let off on some of the intensity of the neural control. HQ needs to know this. Capt is still using a proxy for me, have the usual vans following me etc to provide a firewall, preventing HQ from getting any real data. Everything going to HQ is totally faked. He has to be forcefully removed. Again, if he was actually given orders to turn off the syntel etc he has refused and is instead using a facade as always. He's extremely paranoid. Nothing's changed! It's the exact same types of scam with the same scripts except the good cop / bad cop thing is valid but reversed. HQ isn't to blame, he is, if it's true he was supposed to turn off the stuff.

Oh yeah, Capt has to be plugged into me 24/7 every second to make sure HQ's eyes and ears aren't sneaking through etc. He has to monitor and guard the disaster vigilantly. He can't leave me to be monitored by anyone else without him there. I spend lots of time looking at nasty gay porn which I'm desensitzed to now. So is he now. He actually enjoys watching it with me. Really. It's like a hobby. Ask any of the other team if you can get the truth out of them. So this is the program now. That's all there is to it. The Capt who has to cover up lots of stuff and me. It's like being on a non-stop phone call. He's there every second now, and we check out gay men, especially the black on white sadistic stuff like on He will scrounge some of the old team members sometimes but mostly it's just the inmates. Whenever I look at the gay porn, which is often, he *has* to be exclusively hooked up to me, getting the visual. Can you imagine the various military personnel who have been involved: "I joined the military. I'm in the military in an elite group and this is what I do now, this is what I have to look at."

Jan 8. More scams from Capt to trick, dodge HQ. If shit was supposed to be off it's not, voices still on, heavy scheme programming, synth dream this morning, he says he can't turn it off b/c HQ's interrogator will nail him and me. Wants me to fake like it's off and keep up the acts. I don't care. I want it off.

It's not here because of HQ it's here because of O'Neil or whatever his name is. In reality, that's how it's been from the begining. 100% of this, of everything that's happened to me since December 2011 and it's effects, including the book, are his doing.

This fucking idiot programmed me to be schziophrenic, to self-censure and contradict every single thought, instilling massive paranoia regarding HQ reading my thoughts. He did this from the very begining. He coached me to lie constantly, to act. He prevented me from looking for work, told me to lie in bed all day and night, gain lots of weight and be fat slob, grow my hair out, not shave, act totally despondent.  It has been killing me. Amazingly he programs the fuck out of my brain and system to keep me in a fake good mood, lobotomized so he and his handful of handlers can deal with me. Yet he coaches, instructs me to act sad or mad on command when he's recording my thoughts/emotions to show HQ how I really am. So he'll traumatize me but instead of me naturally feeling the pain I have to fake it per his instructions since my overriding state is fake so that his team is spared the trauma of being a horrifically tortured victim of an evil black botched project.

With this idiot's evil system, you are in a constant second-by-second deposition where every single thought no matter how minute is either hidden or recorded or manipulated so he can cover his lying ass. In general that's how this system was from the beginning, extreme policing mind  interrogation.

Maybe this will put an end to it. Capt "Eric O'Neill or O'Neal" uses skinhead inmates (parolled or otherwise sprung) for local operations. His name may be wrong, I'm not totally sure. The skins are all around me. They come and go in batches. He "fires" a lot of them. What I've heard via the syntel (not disinfo either) - he screams at them and rips on them mercilessly. I've heard showdowns with them many times. They hate him. Most of the rental houses in my neighborhood are occupied by them or have been, or are used by other unwitting resources. They're in vans most of the time, typically white utility type vans but they can have any business name on it. A favorite car is the little midget type car. A common one they use - it just passed by with a skinhead resource in it - is purple. The Capt dresses in business attire almost always, is about 6 to 6 foot 2 inches, black hair and beard (this may be gone now). I'm positive about his physical description. He created the project and runs it. He lives in a large, very upscale neighborhood close by.  Ultimately, he's running this and is responsible. He's been covering his ass like no tomorrow which is the only reason for the continued syntel, psychotronic-neural tortures - heavy mind control.

My understanding now is that the groups of 40 and 5 won't help now. He's just stuck with a sporadic team of 8 skins. Hope I'm right. SS Admin HQ still lets this circus charade go on.

I just want this turned off and him GONE.

The synthetic telepathy and other tortures were supposed to stop? Want to know why he keeps doing it as hard as he can?

At least please turn off the synthetic telepathy and neural manipulation, and synthetic nightmares-dreamstate.

New Years Resolution: keep breathing and get my freedom from TPTB. I can only repeat myself here. Going into the fourth year of having my head constantly spun. Want peace and quiet. Want my ability to have natural dreams and spirituality back.

Question. The nazi brown-shirt super soldier program that keeps my ass under RNM effectively de-humanizing, de-spiritualizing me, likes all things nazi. Well, didn't their hero AH once say something like:  Those who are willing to fight for survival should be allowed to live, and those who don't wish to survive should be given every assistance towards that end.  ?? Didn't he?

Isn't this the military that has me? Where's the code of honor?

I wish to survive. In contrast, the masses wish for shitty, putrid existences. They're totally fake in every way. They are the true archons if you really want to be honest. They aren't interested in truth and authenticity, they're interested in garbage. So be it, and they get more propoganda, war and misery, and cheap garbage to enjoy per their insistance. This website etc has given them more classified info than any other source I know of.  I certainly did my part for them didn't I?

I want my freedom.

I'm a non-participant in any and all human conflicts.

I disrespect and distain the loser masses who blindly do what they're told.

The real me is too psychologically and emotionally damaged to be any kind of liability or threat, or asset. Truthfully, I don't know who the hell I am. The extent of the torture was covered up massively.

I can't do third grade math now.

I want Out, not in. I want to be as far away as possible from humans and the shit that goes along with them. Really.

SEAL Milab program leader is a gigantic Insider Threat
The damage that can be causd by 1 person is astonishing. History shows this over and over.  I wonder if the National Insider Threat Task Force has seen this site?

How the Myron May MKUltra FSU Staged Shooting Was Pulled Off

The Florida State University (FSU) shooting involving a semi-controlled MKUltra subject, Myron May, was carried out by the intelligence agency that acted as his controllers (handlers) and had been torturing and programming him. This event was similar to the Aaron Alexis mass shooting event at the Washington Navy Yard.  Directed Energy Weapons (DEW) systems aka Psychotronic or Frequency Weapons Systems were used...

Mr. May was an intelligent, successful thirty-one year old with no history of mental problems (until his targeting started). Typically when targeted individuals naively reach out for help to the police or hospitals upon being blindsided by terrifying electronic torture, they are forced into psych wards despite the fact that they are displaying the opposite characteristics of mental illness in that they are seeking help, trying to stop the torture being inflicted on them by psychotronic neural weapons systems.

The intelligence agents (domestic terrorists) who “handled” Mr. May knew his every move and had the capability of monitoring his thoughts and feelings, and of course his actions. They knew the psychological impact of the torture they were inflicting on him.


What I’ve just described is different than the type of shooting where a subject can be under total remote control, completely unaware of what they’re doing. Mr. May and Mr. Alexis were aware but were in a powerfully altered, emotionally detached, militant state of mind. A strongly, but not totally, controlled state of mind. They were first, over a period of time, tortured physically and psychologically, including sleep deprivation, with the very life essence in them stripped away. They could not carry on existing in the state they were in. Literally there was no other solution and I can assure you once the decision was made to use them as shooters, powerful neuroscience applications the public isn’t aware of were used in programming them to become committed shooters.

A hallmark of MKUltra is to fracture the personality, the mind in general, then remold the subject to any number of alter personalities. Of course, this can include a hardcore killer when it comes time to make them kill.

Here’s where they went wrong. Myron was intelligent enough to create documentation and identify himself as a targeted individual, and use his “suicide” as a way to bring attention to the plight of other targeted individuals and help stop the evil being inflicted on them. Incredibly they failed in steering him away from mailing detailed letters and posting credible messages online… and they continued with the proxy murder scheme anyway. Mr. May succeeded in his goal of educating the public about the horrific torture being inflicted on targeted individuals. The effects of his success will be hard to measure but will indeed have a powerful impact. Perhaps his handlers gambled, betting that his message would not get much exposure. How wrong they are. They cannot afford to have the public, on any appreciable level, even know what a targeted individual is. The basic claims of these domestic torture victims cannot be presented. Schopenhauer’s three stages of truth are being fired up now. The government-directed shooting of the FSU students via their torture subject, Myron May, amounts to a bucket of gasoline being thrown on a fire.

How was the government’s latest mass-shooting actually choreographed, what did they do? May’s handlers would have “helped” him decide where to do the shooting. They would have choreographed the event and totally mind controlled the necessary number of subjects, from witnesses to police, paramedics, doctors and school administrators, to make the whole event follow their script.

An absolutely essential part of this script when the controlled shooter is above average in intelligence and could do substantial damage if left alive – is of course to kill them. I don’t presume to know exactly what Myron did when the police arrived but I do know that even if he had hypothetically been on his knees with his hands in the air saying “I surrender, please don’t shoot” he would have been swiss-cheesed in a hail of bullets. Furthermore, any witnesses would be totally mind-controlled, basically having their minds blanked or to state to any reporters the desired lie the remote neural controllers of their brains want them to say.

The intelligence agency that conducted the shooting’s bet is that the ignorance of the public combined with the repetitive drumbeat of “mental illness” dominating the headlines concerning the shooting will drown out the information that Mr. May left behind. They expect that few will even be interested in looking at the ramblings of a nutcase. Where they’ve gambled big is that the spread of the term “targeted individual” won’t have an impact.

I do not condone the government’s shootings of innocent civilians.

In reality, Myron May did not commit suicide. A targeted individual committing suicide is an oxymoron. He was murdered horrifically in every way and done so in a truly evil attempt to besmirch his name. To his eternal credit, Mr. May identified the true criminals behind all of this. As of yet, aside from Mr. May, nobody else is dead and hopefully all the other victims will survive and learn the truth of who actually conducted the shootings.

MYRON MAY (FSU shooter) - was a targeted individual. Seeing resemblences with Aaron Alexis here? When will we see what was in the packages May sent out? SOON. I know the contents of it. He was being tortured to death electronically. He also sent correspondence to Congress. He DIDN'T kill anyone but easily could have. This was his way of committing suicide. He basically wanted to be a martyr since he was being murdered anyway. That's the contents of the letter.

Note, this guy was a former Felony Prosecuter.
"He did his job with distinction and honor," said District Attorney Mark D'Antonio.

Are you a District Attorney?
Read this site if you want to learn what's behind this and the other shootings. I've thoroughly spilled my guts. Did his controllers watch and actually help choreograph the shooting? YES! I shut up and this site comes down as soon as the RNM etc is turned off . Turn it off and get the fuck off me.

Myron May, tortured via S-QUAD (ELF) Frequency mind control weapons platform.




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"Meddling men don't live long." ... Control Factor. I'm not a meddling man. The meddling men won't release me. They're one state next to mine. Someone let me out.

Oct 22, 2014
I have to wonder what they gain by keeping me in here.  SEE blog entry with today's date for commentary on mind control in the financial world.  Regular blog entries start in the right hand column following the bit about the Clintons.

Oct 20 - I don't have a background in the military or police, let alone intelligence work etc. But I wonder what the rationale of the military entities that keep me imprisoned in this anti-life, anti-human hell program is. Honestly, I'm running out of stuff to expose. I can't think of anything else. I've disclosed everything on this site and on the air. They could have released me at some point and there would have been no damage. Instead, the TRUTH about their faction and transhumanist super soldier program is hemorrhaging unstopabbly. Again, I'm not qualified professionally other than to speculate ... but what level of classified data being openly spewed (not leaked) to the world is acceptable? Have you ever heard of the word PROPAGATE? Am I insane or are the facts on this page not being SPREAD around? What amount of damage is 'negligable'? Why the hell am I still in a failed project after I've spilled my guts to probably a million or more people around the world? Every day this site is up the entire super soldier program and broader program/agenda gets kicked in the nuts harder. The damage is incalculable, it has to be. How stupid can you be? Any other group would have released me by now, especially with the any-terms-accepted stance I have. I have zero doubt about that.

Oct 18 - Glad to have been on the Pete Santilli radiothon but wish it had been longer than the time I had. Thanks to Derrick and Pete for the opportunity.
- The black ops SEAL group that has me, aside from the transhumanist esoteric stuff they've done with me, is a DOMESTIC TERRORIST group - big-time, and can and will act as a DEATH SQUAD. From the very begining I was told that "we" are licking our chops waiting for a civil war and/or other depopulation event. Actually, helping start a cataclysm like this is exactly what 'we' excel at. Dirty deeds. THIS IS WHAT 'WE'RE' ALL ABOUT. Especially urban terrorism, in city settings. I had numerous milab training / screen-memories related to this along with their ideology baked in from the very begining.
I've said this before but it's worth repeating: They control the police whenever, wherever they see fit by simply taking them over via the psychotronic remote-neural-human control avatar system they use. The police are NOT corrupt and do not run 'gangstalking' operations. They're unwitting remote-controlled zombies too when/where required just like the other 'perps' that most TI's think are stalking them intentionally. 
- I'm on an open neural hived communications network where a number of team members are online at any given time. Just like an open conference call. We all can talk to each other. Unfortunately I have zero control over content coming from me. They get to filter and only 'say' what they want. I'm a piss-ant tool - a piece of requisitioned bio-equipment and every single thought, large or small gets picked up and fed into the stream. I also have no protection - they can beam any content they want into my head, torturing the living hell out of me. Just hearing constant ringing with voices is enough to drive most people mad. However, as an integrated team-member I share in the knowledge of operations, tactics, ideology... everything small to HUGE. I know psychotronic mind/human control extremely well, like the back of my hand. Speaking of that, I have a holographic tattoo on the top of my right hand that identifies me as a SEAL (although I reject any membership or affiliation with my handlers).
- And, again I know that the electromagnetic frequency fence prison system in place makes any chance of resistance by the masses impossible.
- Killing large segments of the population has been common talk from the begining.
- They can micro-control the weather unbelievably. They can control wind, rain, even sunlight in certain settings such as making your room suddenly go dark or making sunlight flood into it.
- They can control all kinds of animals around you including birds which they did with me a lot initially. Any common animal man may encounter can be taken over. Of course this kind of stuff pales in comparison to the use of DEW's on the population. Yes, America and the NATO West are concentation camps with the civilians being the prisoners - and they are oblivious. The best kind of slave is the type that doesn't know they're a slave.
- Know what a 'site to site transporter' is? I have to thank the main group that brought me into the program and refuses to let me out, for effectively driving me into the TI community for support and help in survival. I learned about the 'site to site transporter' from another TI in DC who used to work for the DOD and actually saw a demo of it.  The name is self-explanatory.
- I was studied and used in wild transhumanist stuff at the CDC. It's no surprise to me the deep involvement the CDC has in the EBOLOA 'crisis'. Sister transhumanist fronts are NIH and CHIA.

- Detonate real or fake nukes in an American city and blame it on Russians or ISIS?
- Use psychotronic neural weapons on select groups of people giving them EBOLA symptoms and even for good measure delivering the real virus remotely to some or all of them, or some other type of virus thingy. It could all be done neurologically though and their systems could also be altered to perfectly mimic symptoms. The "modern" medical professionals at the hospitals (who are decades behind in medicine) would be clueless. They would be monitored and taken over as needed to make sure everything went smoothly. They'd never question anything, they'd respond like true robots, which is what they'd truly be if they did start to get suspicious.
- Start real or fake race wars.

I have a TI friend who's asked me a few times the purpose of her gangstalking involving be swarmed by people in red clothing and red cars and trucks. Here are the reasons: 1. Field testing of mass human control and coordination. 2. To mess with her psychologically and keep her traumatized and unstable. 3. Tagging people who may be of interest as tools, even if they are ordinary nobodies is useful as they can be made to do anything anytime as needed for any event or reason.  Now, following this same pattern of human resource acquisition and mobilization any subsets of the population can be given "EBOLA". They can all be driven by live agents who are 'avataring' them or otherwise driving them, to call 911 or go to a hospital and/or go beserk. So, TI's used as human test pilots around which other bodies of the population can be taken over ad-hoc and added to the list of available zombie tools plays an integral role in the open-air mind-control prison called America.

Worried about being a Ferguson ISIS CDC-EBOLA-ZOMBIE? How would you like to never be able to dream again? How would you like to be in a frequency-fence forever? It's been 34 months now that I've been in a frequency fence cut off spiritually with no real dreams. None. Only synthetic content beamed into my brain. Could this be coming for you too? As the song 'Dangerous' says in the link to the right 'they've got plans for us'. Later.

Oct 16 - more interesting inside stuff which isn't inside anymore.
how stuff works fyi

See blog section below for cool anti-human abduction story.

What's a site-to-site transporter? What's that loud pop that a lot of TI's hear in their room? I have TI friend who used to work for DOD who got a demo of it.

Oct 15, 2014. I discuss the hiliarious Boston Marathon false-flag event a bit in the Synthetic Telepathy manual and I've mentioned it before as a great example of what amounts to remote-human-control paramilitary terrorism built on top of gangstalking. What are these idiot remote controlled cops with their shades on doing below other than posing for another remote-controlled zombie photographer?

These are remote-controlled cops. We say in SEAL synthetic telepathy jargon about the state of mind of subjects that are remotely  comandeered and driven: "they don't know." To them it was 'just something', 'something happened'. To 'not know' means being in a blanked out state, just a zombie.

I'm positive I have Ebola - you better come get me! The Obama Ebola SWAT squads that is. I was used a lot at the CDC / Emory which is a front that does major transhumanist research and development. So it's no surprise to me the interesting role they're playing in the Ebola false-flag scam. I love Barko. My targetting started under him so I think of him in a special way although he's just a mind-controlled puppet no different than Bush Jr. or the rest of them.  I'm getting a higher fever every second and need quarantined. In the name of good zombie health come and get me. Oh yeah, I'm thinking of joining ISIS too. Where can I join up at? Oh yeah, I'm already in a similar group, forgot. Except this group is real, ISIS isn't.

National Institute of Health and CHIA are also used in transhumanist milab stuff. 

Oct 14, 2014 Looking forward to being on the Pete Santilli Show at the big Radiothon this Saturday.

October 12, 2014
I decided to write a technical manual on Synthetic Telepathy / Artificial Intelligence. Hope nobody "minds." The good news is I plan for it to be free! The whole world can learn how to communicate via Syntel and learn how it works. But wait! Don't leave yet... I'm rolling all kinds of classified neural-programming and effects type of stuff into it as well. I'm pretty decent at writing technical manuals so this should be a labor of love for me.  Hope you all enjoy. Below is a good intro / teaser. The fun's just starting.  Also, see blog entry below dated Oct 12 for the nitty-gritty demographics of NWO factionalism and depopulation agendas. Title: A Tale of Two Black Ops Groups.

Oct 13: I'm adding pieces as I go.  Pardon this being used as work in progress type page section.

While the manual is being written, one immediate technique a suffering Targeted Individual - or other subject - under Synthetic Telpathy may want to experiment with immediately is to issue the command: "Tell me who you are" and "Tell me what you know" to the system. Try to "intend" that you are broadcasting this message not just to an agent but to the entire system as well, such as surreptitiously using a 'cc' or 'bc' in an email to other recipients. Use left side - right side - technique below in issuing the command after doing it straight down the left side with serious intention with the last word 'know' being soft and mispronounced like "schnow". As you mentally mispronounce it though try to intend/know what you are actually saying - i.e. that' it's meant to be cryptic and blurred. Also as the last word trails off let it kind of float over to the right side. You might subtely grind your teeth on the right jaw  as the word is trailing off. It's best to do this whenever you think your handlers may be vulnerable for whatever reasons, perhaps there is a sensitive situation on their part and they especially wouldn't want to be audited at that time.


NSA Military Synthetic Telepathy and Artificial Intelligence Manual


This manual is being produced by an insider in the American military secret police structure. Although an MKUltra Super Soldier (civilian resource, targeted individual used against his will) the author knows an astounding amount of information about the overall system used in hiving military and paramilitary resources (minds). I was trained by Navy SEAL, NSW and Air Command teams on how to use this system. During the past several years under constant communication with this system I’ve also communicated with Craft private contractors and other interesting coerced human resources used as agents. Translating verbiage along with blended signals oriented to morse-code type patterns in a binary fashion of left and right is a daunting and complex task. Understanding it is fairly difficult but can certainly be done. I’ve mastered it myself and am as fluent as any resource in the American special operations military / intelligence structure.

It helps that I have made my living as a Software Engineer for nearly 30 years and I’ve developed and worked on many low-level communications systems including prestigious environments like Motorola.

The AI / Synthetic Telepathy system used on the author is one of the most advanced. It should be understood that this is extremely classified technology. As such I do not have access to manuals or other materials. I can speak from my experience with it and what I was taught or otherwise learned from extensive non-stop operations under it. I can only speculate that other versions of this system do exist and that perhaps some have less capabilities than others. Again, as I was told, the Navy has access to the most advanced mind control technologies. It matters not that I have never looked at a manual. You don’t need a book or manual to learn French verbally either. In fact, learning this system the way I did has made me extremely fluent in it, more so than having the crutch of manuals and courses would.

It’s better for me to publish what I know now to lessen the odds of getting killed later as a dangerous liability. I want to say something else important at this time. Many contractor agents in this system have learned what this system is really all about – the full scope of it and internal information regarding the end of mankind. They implored me to go public and “tell the world.” I have but it’s too late.

If you are a targeted individual who is getting synthetic telepathy and you are configured in a relevant way you can teach yourself the synthetic telepathy basics and techniques I am disclosing here and use them powerfully to wreak havoc on your controllers and their system. You can trigger security alerts or generate AI system interrogations of handlers among other things. More broadly, all humans on the planet are now targeted individuals but they don’t know it. They exist within a software network as computers. As such, suppose the primary language used in a network’s applications and operating systems was C++ or Java. It would be helpful to know this language if you wanted to hack the system, let alone try to take it down. Well, synthetic telepathy is the language of the operating system and administrative neural applications of new Earth, and its post-humans. Learning this will provide you with a powerful tool if you wished to be a true “freedom fighter.”

So if you’re ready to learn about communicating with one’s brain and entire system via wi-fi with other people and machines wired to do the same then lets begin.

It must first be understood that there is an acquired feel to this Synthetic Telepathy which cannot be taught. Like learning to ride a bike, or trying to describe what an orange tastes like, or speak a language with all it's nuances and shortcuts and intimations. 

If one wanted to seriously communicate within the American military’s synthetic telepathy system they would have to know the protocols involved. They’d have to practice it and develop new neural pathways. In order to even understand the messages coming into their head accurately they would have to understand the core principles and, further, advanced details, to really translate the messages.

Important: Not only can communications come across in a serial fashion from a single operator but also from numerous parties; there can also be lurkers and there are ways to flush them out.

The reader can see that this subject is identical to cryptography used in other forms of cryptic, highly secure communications, past and present. Aspects of hacking kick in big-time here. The implications related to national security interests are huge. Learning this system is akin to a fighter pilot learning techniques of every nature to intercept, blend in, stalk, deceive and outmaneuver the enemy, as well as work within and help his own team.

There’s nothing else like synthetic telepathy. Nothing! People who don’t know it and are not hived into a team are like primitive apes! They’re thousands and thousands of years behind in comparison to the person who is wired into “Man” aka “Him” – as long as they are being helped and supported by “Him.”   Note, the targeted individual who is a node on the human-brain-computer network only for the purpose of being monitored and tortured via synthetic telepathy and never brought in any further will not experience any insights into the system other than personal misery. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve been tortured as bad or worse than any other targeted individual I know. However, I was set up in an extremely unique role where I was supposed to be a part of the team, so I was configured in a way where I was kind of an open node, a peer node. A great metaphor is an impressed resource into a military unit or a pledge in a fraternity. I am beat on and treated mercilessly but I was also thrown some perks and considered part of the team and as such under the same hived umbrella-network. I learned and now know, as far as I can tell, virtually everything they know outside of various transhumanist technologies and operations -- which I really don’t want to know about any further.  In past interviews and publications I’ve watched my words carefully and stayed off certain subjects in terms of detail or importance – out of fear and common sense. I no longer care as I’ll never get out alive.

The planet is being cut off from all spiritual, cosmic and organic energies. The only real ‘power’ will be the man and this is essentially, believe it or not, this AI human-control network I’m describing, the artificial intelligence in this system which is essentially a deity in a way. We call him “Man.”  Those with insider admin type status in the system have immense power over those who do not.


Imagine needing to get a written, verbal and/or visual-image based report from someone. This is no longer needed much. If you wanted to know exactly how and what someone thought and felt – PRECISELY – how they viewed something, or know exactly what they know now you can. Well not you, but the officials who run the system can. A lower-level operator of the system can capture in precise minute detail exactly what a subject is thinking and feeling about something by actually being that person remotely from a fusion center, military base or lab or other location - even just sitting in their car down the street. There is no ambiguity, no mistake at all about what the subject thinks and feels. Just as an image or audio file can be saved on a computer, so can a human’s TOTAL experience for any given period of time. Their exact mentation and emotional state. Another human can experience this, can relive as the subject – effectively be that person retroactively for that period of time. If a government official wanted to know a genius’ blueprints for an invention, and also understand it the exact same way that he does this can be done easily. Every mind can be ripped off in crystal clear perfection. Like a virtual reality that’s beyond virtual. Imagine someone commits a crime or knows about it. They can be interrogated by this system (and not even know it) and tell exactly what they know and what happened in exact unambiguous detail.

This is one reason it’s so important to understand and know Synthetic Telepathy right now even if you aren’t actively targeted.

Can you see that the Boston Marathon ‘bombing’ was a total false-flag hoax? Half the city was put in lockdown with darth-vader swat units shaking down innocent civilians in their own homes. How about the poor kids who were framed for this? If this was a real event any suspect could be located anywhere in the country instantly, knocked out electronically (or just dumbed down) then interrogated. By the way, the cops and all other security personnel were all under mind control the whole time, literally operated via remote control. The whole event was done remotely. False flag and other paramilitary operations carried out by zombie 'gang-stalking' remote human control will be discussed at the end of this manual. You can reference your TV for by the minute episodes of this at any time e.g. Ferguson, ISIS, Ebola, the entire War on Terror (theatre) in the middle east, the Arab Spring etc and the dissolution of the revolution related to the Occupy movement etc circa 2010. Congress is a total mind-control theatre of literal zombified puppets, as are judges in courts on important hearings.

It is also invaluable for professionals in the mental health field to understand this subject as there will be a growing number of cases of ‘voice hearers’.  Prisons and psych wards have victims of abusive Synthetic Telepathy. These targeted individuals are ignorantly diagnosed with mental disorders simply for reporting that electronic content, including synthesized live human voices,  is being interfaced with their brains.

After and during reading of this manual you are encouraged to research Synthetic Telpathy, make notes and practice the techniques you've learned. You may want to turn on running water and induce tinnitus in some way - perhaps through cold medicine and visualize yourself in a wall of electricity while practicing the techniques.

Lets Start!


- Lexicon: Terminology, learning the lingo.

- Basics

What it means to “KNOW” something. What it means to “SHOW” something.
“Tell me who you know.”
“Tell me what you know.”
“Show me what you do / are.”

- Left-Right protocol
Under the system your brain is attuned to reading messages on its left and right sides and combinations between these, thus a binary system is used. The good news it's as simple as a basic binary system in that sense.  As we all now, computers are binary yet the building blocks of functionality built on top of that 0 and 1 paradigm are complex. In order to effectively send messages through the system where the system actually reads them as native message your words should be assembled in packets in the correct format. Those with communication software backgrounds will understand this better, but the concept is simple. You typically will mix words up where one or more key words appear on the left side as antonyms.  The reason for this is that left side words and other communicative effects are by default false.

- What you hear first is the truth. Successive messages are false or at least the first one or two are. So if a series of two or three messages comes in that carry a tone of importance pay attention mostly to the first two in particular. If they contradict each other, then the first one is correct.

- Sometimes all of one side is true, Details on this. Look for additional layered messages hitting other parts of the body.

-  How to "talk" back to agents and the AI aspects of the system itself:
Introduction on pushing messages back and down:
When we speak we normally look at who we're speaking to, projecting our thoughts and speech directly forward and out to the person(s). Even on the phone we usually visualize somehow the person in front of us. You don't give a public speech with your back turned to the audience. The brain is oriented to communicate in a serial fashion straight frontward outward. In Syntel we modulate (translate) our thoughts into words or semi-emotive-words-images and push them down and back - out the back of our necks. That sounds strange but that's how you do it. The brain is not multiplexed to communicate this way. In the computer science world this is a whole lot like a multi-threaded program running in the back of our brain - in fact you could see it as a kind of software-modem - and it sends 'fire and forget' threads down and out the back of our heads/necks. It is awkward at first but in time you develop new neural pathways to do it from practicing. It then becomes automatic and you actually can't stop.

Tapping, scratching or rubbing with your hand or foot while ‘speaking’ to reinforce or to quickly shoot a warning or important message out. You can also generate feeling like a suppressed emotion while ‘talking’ to add emphasis and total clarity on your wishes. This is similar to an email message flagged as “important.”

- The prominence of masking techniques and how they relate to mental programming via key words in MKUltra or other subjects. 

-Whispering, subliminal effects and understanding true intent and meaning.

- What’s true and what’s a lie or disinformation mixture.

- Body language is huge... talk about key features of this such as looking down.

- Leading the target by posing open-ended questions and stopping after just a few words so they start filling in the rest mentally.

- Are you sure you are willfully putting your hand over your mouth, rubbing your face, scratching your head? Directing the subject to engage in personal movements and gestures that help reinforce and/or have special meaning while delivering powerful subliminal messages. Example: making the subject put his hand over his mouth signifying a secret and/or to stop thinking (‘mentally talking’) and listen to the message while in a temporary trance they’ve been put into. This can also be done to feign lying i.e. to make the system think that the subject is lying in repsonse to a question, if this is what's desired by the agent coordinating the subjects movements.

- This is a neural-adaptive, predictive-programming system. The system is extremely good at knowing your next set of thoughts / mental dialog. It can almost seem like the system is thinking for you, but it’s just so advanced in understanding your brain and thought patterns that it accurately presents your next thoughts.

- Symantecs: The use of acquired code words. Symantec mangling words to create special cryptic code words only select parties understand.  Entire vocabularies unique to whatever unit are generated by team members ad-hoc. A cryptic nature of speaking is usually used.

- Security

- Weak Points and ways to cause...

- Advanced techniques

--- Later Portions of Chapters / Details ---

Dialog patterns

- When you look down, your head is flooded with either real or fake-imposed subconscious thoughts. They are usually negative. Looking down brings on negative thoughts. It does under this system.

- Dialog occurs either in the left side or right side of your brain – or it feels this way. It’s very clear as it happens.

- Left side verbiage is always false by default, unless an after-phrase of “sometimes left is correct” is whispered. Same thing for right side except right side equals truth.

- When you get the ‘sometimes left/right side is right/wrong’ exception message it’s usually in regard to something important they are trying to convey to you, a nugget of truth, or tip, they are trying to slip you.  You will get tons of disinfo from the handlers if you are a TI of some type, but you can almost always trust the ‘sometimes exception’ as truth.

- Left side of head is the standard for superfluous text. If they talk to you a lot it would be impossible for every single word to alternate from right to left, so the left side is the common channel for regular dialog. Another type of exception is when every single word of an important sentence is all on the left side. When this is done it’s the equivalent of the words being in bold text, they are kind of emphasized in a way to indicate that it’s meant to all be consolidated on the left side. However, it can still be a false statement. It could also be true too. It’s just being packed into the left side entirely.

- Masking. The agent can mask the words by overlaying them with other words and also by straddling the center line, trying to cross back and forth and creating confusion with synonyms and antonyms. Also they can mess with the timing. Almost immediately after saying a word like “Yes” on the left side which would mean “No” if it were emphasized as a left-side word, they can say “No” which would mean “Yes”.  They can also add a touch of confusion as they do this so you can’t easily tell which it is.  If you slowly replay the sentence and break it down though you can figure it out.

- Communication can take place via vibrations from any source. They can take place from any consistent sound around you. Crickets chirping on a summer night can be used as a medium to communicate with you. The sound can repeat “you’re an idiot” or “dickhead” over and over etc… or something positive. The agent also can direct left-right side communication as well by making you chatter your teeth slightly, rubbing or scratching yourself or any object, tapping or rubbing with your foot; by virtually *any* tactile or auditory stimuli.

- Interrogations. A subject will be interrogated with a soft, masked voice asking “tell me who you are?” or similar question. That’s how it starts. The word ‘who’ or ‘what’ is key. “Who told you….?”, for example. Again they will often mask this other voices and vibration-communication running on top of it. Involuntarily, things related to what they are asking will pop up in your mind.

Ways to counter (hinder) it:

Ask questions back. Apply the Syntel protocol techniques described above if you are game to actually learning this or already have. If not, talk verbally out loud. Do not try to talk back in your head if you don’t know how. Important, you want to ask the question back using a combination of the right-left pattern if using this specific synthetic telepathy protocol. Put a key antonym or negating word on the left side. Example:

Right side: “who told you to
Left side: “shut up”
Right: “about us?”

Keep repeating this. You can also repeat confusing phrases in a Clinton-esque kind of fashion. In doing this, don’t worry about left-right side protocol. Just say it either out loud or internally straight out. Examples: “I’ve said that before and so has she.”  “Oh, is that right?”

You may feel the interrogator trying to pull your words to one side or another. Visualize a deep magnetic pole or star on one side of your brain; feel it saying “false, false but is it?... you never know, maybe there’s something on the other side? Wait… there might be something I missed, something going on over there…” so it’s a kind of ambiguous tug-of-war. *Revert to this if the interrogator nails you. “You never know, that may not be all there is to it…. There was something else.” Try not to actually think, just get both hemispheres of your brain in a kind of wrestling match.

The interrogator component will always try to get you to look down and to your left – typical eye movement for recalling the past. So try to look to your right.

If you feel your inner mental voice starting to answer a question or suddenly visualizing, thinking of a correct response, keep your hand over your mouth or nose. This is body language for lying. Also experiment with rubbing your finger across the cleft between your upper lip and nose (mustache area). You may want to keep your hand over and around your nose and mouth, and also dart your eyes around also to act like you are hiding something if they’ve pulled the truth out of you.

Still, it’s almost impossible to win. What they are seeking will always come out. Especially if you get paranoid after a while, or just tired etc. They’ll get everything they want out of you when you fall asleep anyway. The mind has no firewall. Sorry.

One thing though. If the subject is sleep deprived and suffering from psychological damage/torture, then it’s a case of “garbage in / garbage out.” The system does not take into account that the subject’s mind may be a total wreck with multiple paranoid, coping-type double-jeopardy type complexes.

Bonus:  Mind Control operations on the public, terminology, applications, “being the target.” The awesome power of remote neuroscience and bio-nanotechnology. Remote neural tricks involving masking and distractions, déjà-vu type impressions on the subject and other fake psi phenomena e.g. fake synchronicities experiences, Psy-Ops techniques.

Jesse Ventura - Testimony from several CIA agents on reality and scope of Neural- Psychotronic Systems and Synthetic Telepathy. Check out Control Factor - a 2003 TV movie that accurately served as a PUBLIC warning in 2003 and discloses in great detail how Synthetic Telepathy works. Disregard the cheesy Hollywood ending. Everything else is accurate except that it's far advanced now.  They also leave out chemtrails. You'd just have old-school type freying without aerosoled chemical agents. Especially note scenes starting at minute marks: 28:08, 16:37 and 58:00. This is what actually happens under the gangstalking that TI's describe wrongly. The 'perps' are unknowing victims, zombies.
Little Letter to the Intel Community
Let me out
Washington: Release me from the program                Navy Yard, Washington D.C.
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  What happened at this place?  
These progressive, enlightened people where burned alive 770 years ago. Me too and I'm still burning, only in a worse 2014-high-tech way. We share the same story basically.

"According to the Cathar approach to dualism, a good god made the heavens and the human soul, while an evil god entrapped that soul to suffer in the flesh of the human body and in material and worldly things of the earth – an evil place. Salvation, according to the Cathars, lay in the human soul's escape to the spiritual realm from its prison of flesh in the material world." Here - and thanks to Iron Maiden: Cathars    And some damn good music with lyrics below.
No offense to anyone, but some stupid, totally unrelated observations may be in order as the evil known as organized religion is used widely as a glue amongst the forces that are persecuting me.

Helpful TI support links.
European Coalition against Covert Harassment (EUCACH)
Freedom from Covert Harassment and Surveillence
Peace Pink
Tortured in America
Ritual Abuse Links and more
TI support contacts

I heard a rumor once that officers in the American military are now only promoted if their IQ is s below a certain score. If that's true it explains a lot of things. 

 Who's the dude in this video?  Let's review.  We're letting him out - NEVER.

"The Internet is causing tremendous problems for them... they're running a race, they know they only have so much time to get control and hive the humans." "And things can come unglued very fast." huh? See Preston James interview in links section.

Nihilist Embracement plans on posting tips for TI's soon. You can find many tips by searching the net - obviously.
First and foremost - if you start hearing voices in your head contact Freedom from Covert Harassment and Surveillance immediately and get as much information as you can. Listen to interviews with Dr. John Hall - the more recent the better in my opinion - and contact Dr. Hall if possible. Talk to as many well known professionals who are familiar with electronic torture and gangstalking as possible. In other words make as much noise as you can and educate yourself as much as possible in the process. Create Youtube videos carefully, accurately detailing your experiences and link to other Targeted Individuals. Treat what's happening to you like you would an accident where your hand is severed or something like that. DO NOT stick your head in the sand and pretend it's not happening. Do not try to carry on as usual - stop everything and put 100 % of your time and effort into stopping it.  Your best chance of getting out - thus saving your life - is in the very begining.  NORMAL is over. There will never be any such thing as Normal again. COPY THE LINKS FROM THIS SITE TO YOUR OWN BLOG AND YOUTUBE CHANNEL where you post your experiences. This will serve as excellent support. Tell the domestic terrorists (that's what they are) that you don't give a damn what they do to anyone else, you just want to be left alone and if they don't go you'll make them pay an exhorbitant price every step of the way. Attack them viciously and relentlessly.  NE has injected some humor into recent postings so the site is a bit more readable and less morose (given the subject matter) - but take this advise seriously and pass it along. This will save lives.

Some Tips for Targeted Individuals:
- Never contact the police, hospital, 'mental health' worker etc unless you have a very good strategy, know who you're dealing with and have a very good reason to do so. Contact someone on a buddy-list in a TI support group instead.
- Psychiatric 'medicine' is poison and will make you insane. Never take it.
- Get as much physical exercise as you can. Get into martial arts. This will help in many ways.
- If you are getting pounded with frequency attacks - mental and physical pain, try this:
take 2-4 Benedryl's with 2 Valorium root pills (can get at health food store). This will give a nice little buzz and take the edge off the torture.
- Remember something very important. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Think about the big picture.
- Listen to Classical Music. Reggae is good too.
- Get a large heavy steel chain and put strong neodymium magnets on it and put it around your neck. This will have the effect of weakening the electromagnetic waves hitting you.  Try putting neodymium magnets on different places of your body, especially lower legs and wrists. You may try puting several magnets between two pieces of duct-tape then putting the tape on the inside of a baseball cap so the magnets are always against your head. They may find a way eventually to get around this so keep experimenting with it. Remember to keep all of your magnets away from your computers, cell phones etc or they will be destroyed.
- Only do this if you have to. Aspartame/Phenylalinine is an excito-toxin, a brain drug basically. And in caffeinated sodas helps you focus. Something about this has a way of counteracting the worst effects of electromagnetic neural torture. It instantly re-wires your brain in a way, getting it back on track. Only use a small amount and on occasion. This is a pesticide created specifically to kill lots of people. However in small amounts on occasion it's no different than any other drug. I prefer small shots of strong espresso and a few sips of regular coke instead. If you need relief you need relief, do what you have to, but stay away from hard drugs.
- Torture your torturer's if you are under RNM. This may not be applicable to every TI but you can try it. If you are getting live voice to skull from handlers it may work.  Turn on a radio and change the dial to a non-station on AM where there is terrible static and high pitched squelching coming and going, turn the volume way up. It's especially effective in a car. You may hear the torture agents actually scream at you to turn it off. Caveat - it will hurt your ears too.  Same principle may apply to visual things as well. If you can stomach staring at disturbing things you may be able to inflict psychological damage back on them. Trust me on this.
- Preserve your sanity and your health at all costs. Commit to winning this struggle. Do anything you have to. Martial arts will empower you. Get to the gym and go at it on punching bags etc. Take plenty of vitamins and health foods. Go in the opposite direction of suicide and fortify yourself in every way. Do anything that suits you to re-establish your sense of power.

Comedy hour....come back to this vid if you get too depressed from further reading..
Back before future president Hillary got into politics I bet you didn't know she did some work with Cheech and Chong. This kind of scene is common in Washington. 

I probably should have used Pelosi or Feinstein or someone else other than Hillary as a prop in my little Cheech & Chong vid ad-line. As far as politicians go I like the Clintons, especially Hillary. That may sound crazy and will surely offend the Rush Limbaugh types.  I like the Clintons if for no other reason than that President Clinton publicy acknowledged government experimentation and torture programs like Monarch and MK-Ultra on American citizens, and he publicly issued an apology on it. Obviously these programs did not stop though. They were simply driven further underground, further into the shadows of deep black operations - especially easier to do since 911. 

I appeal to the Clintons to please help to release myself and others from this covert 'milab' MK-Ultra program.

Anyone high enough in government who can access my file, feel free. You certainly have my permission for what its worth.

A crazy thought

TI's always ask, when is this going to end, am I trapped in this for life? I see one way out, and it's not far-fetched. First of all, the problem is your country's secret military operations, whatever country you happen to be in. Therefore you need liberated from your government, meaning it has to be destroyed with the military-related structures that run these operations. GONE. WIPED OUT. In America this may well happen.  What if the United Nations ran what is now the USA?  America's hidden special ops human experiment-torture programs would cease because the American military wouldn't really exist anymore. When America is under United Nations control then I can have my mind back. I can have actual dreams at night, I can have private thoughts. I can think any damn thing I want. I can let my mind wander. I can relax. I can be human.  I'm strongly PRO-UN because of my situation.  I have ancestory going back to early colonial days in New England and Virginia, ancestors who faught in the Revolutionary War, both sides of the War Between the States, D-Day, Vietnam etc. If things like that really mattered then why am I being tortured to death in my own "country"? I welcome UN liberation. Anyone who gets me out of this is a liberator.

Look everyone, We got pulled into a  MKULtra Black Ops Navy Seal Super Soldier program. Look at us now.

Look at us now

AND SUPER SOLDIER Program Directors

Used against our will and on a termination program after being thoroughly destroyed and de-humanized.

Do you reap what you sow?

wHo do we, the ringleaders of this wicked transhumanist mil-cult really serve behind all the camoflauge of ideology? Who hired us?
you got it!




I'm on a heavy 'torture to suicide TI platform/program'. Why? Here's the thing. The synthetic telepathy and heavy remote neural monitoring / conrol was supposed to stop back in October 2014. There's no 'psychic research' program - that's a lie and cover. Why am I still under intense RNM, electronic torture and synthetic telepathy? Why is this site still published, who's actually behind it? It's not me. I hate it and want it down. I'm forced to do it. Why am I still a TI? When is the RNM, syntel etc going to be removed or scaled back to how to the days of the 'grays and reptilian' junk? Why has NOTHING changed?

4-9-15 where can I run to ? Need frequency protection, need protection from humans.
I'm in hell. Hell. I've explained in detail who my handlers are and who the main controllers are, and the incredible power they have over higher-ups to cover up and lie about what's actually happening. It does no good. I'm being mentacided in a torture-to-suicide Targeted Individual program that passes for a milab 'psychic warrior' program. I'm being slowly boiled alive just like every other TI under electronic torture.

4-6-15 They'll pay for this. It never stops, pure evil. How they'll pay. No matter what they won't turn off the RNM torture-ware. Time the avenger.
4-3-15 SEAL controller won't stop with the torture. Hard stuff is back now. This sick freak won't quit. Nobody listens. I'm not supposed to be a hardcore TI. I live for revenge, that's all I can hold out for.  I can't wait till it's my turn - someday. Idiot air command are like Jane Fonda visiting the Hanoi Hilton. Totally conned fools. I burn every day, tortured relentlessly and it's covered up. That's what this website is all about, that's what all of this is about.

3-27-15 I lost my life and I'm not getting it back. I'm a hardcore Targeted Individual and the morons at the top of the air command group don't even know it. Everything is covered up. What's the point? I'll never not have handlers talking into my head. I'll never not be under powerful remote neural control. I'll never have real dreams, spiritual experiences, any private thoughts, feelings or experiences. NEVER. Insanity and evil rule.





Jan 7, 2015. Lots of neural manipulation and heavy altering to try to keep me dumb and confused.  All this is being directed by one desperate rat trying cover up loads of stuff. It's not HQ who he blames as the bad guy in his scheme. I think back to how I was before this started. It's evil beyond evil. I wonder if the top admin realizes what this stuff does, the hardcore frequency fence, syntel, total control stuff they've used. Calling it torture is too light. And this evil bastard covers it up massively as I've described. The scheme is so insane. This is the most paranoid, hare-brained idiot and he's screwed everyody. Would you actually still believe this guy?

Again, at least just turn as much as possible of this torture system off. No more voices in my head, neural control, synthetic nightmares and 'lesson' dreams.  Someone will have to force him to turn it off. He'll never do it on his own. What's he hiding, lying about?


Jan 1, 2015. Happy unhappy new years. When does the nightmare end? What else can I publish here?

I thought about kind of a concession, something I'd be willing to do if they actually turned this roach-ware off. I'd smoke weed regularly which would fry my brain and screw up the hive-related neural pathways that developed during this mental rape-fest.  These pathways would be atrophying anyway without my head being a literal computer/modem. I'd be a total couch potato staring my new big screen TV, smoking weed. Weed does keep you fried and stupid, bottom line. But then I realized that if I were actually free I'd be in shock. It would be surreal. I'd be flooded with emotions of all kinds. I KNOW the pain would absolutely knock me over. I'd cry for months, going into a deep depression which you'd expect. Lots of this kind of stuff in the healing process. Trying to work would be very difficult but I'd do my best. I'd be paranoid of the targetting resuming. I was very deep and spiritual before this started and they raped the deepest depths of my being, of my mind, soul etc.  The reconcilling of what's happened would put me into massive shock, PTSD. The totality of it is overwhelming. That's why they have to keep me drugged right now via slick neural programming and sometimes actual drugs. They've never let me cry and always step in immediately when I start feeling any kind of painful emotion, putting me into a numb lobotomy and using memory blocking techniques. They will also often just knock me out, putting me to sleep.  They can't and don't want to feel the pain I feel. Anyway, there'd be no need for pot. I'd already be in such a massively screwed up state. In time though I probably would resort to medicating in some way.  I remember a Vietnam vet I once met who I got high with - long ago. He told me he'd been through hell and was really screwed up. He said as long as he's smoking his pot he's ok. I can kind of see that.

Dec 30. Going into the 4th year now on electronic torture. I'm tortured worse than any common TI. The evil idiot who started all this is giving me a pounding headache now because he simply doesn't like my thoughts. Simple as that. Same thing. This moron tells you something over synthetic telepathy then a minute later tortures you for thinking about it. The torture hasn't ended but the ss admin doesn't know that.

Dec 24. I'd kill to be free. Literally. No problem. What's that tell you? I'm going a million miles per hour AWAY from all of this, not towards it - or I would be but No - they won't let me go. Right now I'm a persistent liablity. Free, I'm the opposite.

Merry fucking christmas.

Dec 23, turn it all off. I can't take it.

Dec 15, 2014 Just turn the fucking RNM off.

Dec 12, 2014. Movie "Gamer". Do you want a nice review of this at the top of this page and spread in other ways? Can I fucking go now?

Dec 7, 2014. I'm speachless. Isn't it getting late in the game? What harm am I if released? NONE. What harm is this site? Incalculable.

How God Damn stupid can they be?

Nobody wants this stupid site down more than me. I want nothing to do with this world and it's problems. Doing what I'm doing violates my principles. I'm supposed to stay OUT.

Why can't they just go away, do ANYTHING other than the electronics? That's all it takes, just turn the shit off and let me be myself. I'll live in any other form of prison. Do ANYTHING other than the RNM, electronics. Do ANYTHING other than the RNM, electronics.

This is the most massive police state in the world. They can't track me some other way?

I'm in hell. An internal, invisible Hell. No dreams, no spirituality, no SELF. no ME.

If they release me I've got it made. Period, end of story.

Dec 4, 2014. I usually mark Dec 5th as the start date of this nightmare with RNM MKUltra. That's the morning I woke up to an obvious surgery. Wouldn't it be great if this nightmare ended on the same date, if they turned this crap off and walked away. Leaving this site up etc causes damage. Taking it down stops it. I actually hate 'talking'. At this point thinking about humans at all is just depressing, not uplifiting or inspiring. That's being nice too. That's what this has done to me. I just want it turned off. I'd go live in the middle of nowhere in a camper, in my car, in a tent, I don't fucking care. I'd do anything. I wouldn't mind starving to death as long as this evil was turned off and I could have my freedom, free mind and spirit. What kind of evil coward won't give a man a chance to even run? Imagine the poorest, most illiterate county in the country... that's where I want to be, although virtually all sheeple are retarded... the smarter ones may actually be the ones that are 'unplugged', that are dropouts, 'failures'. Nothing in the world, no amount of money etc would make me ever repeat what's already been said on this site. Why would I? It's a one way trip to the psych ward. The additional humiliation of a mental hospital is the price you pay for laying pearls before swine. I hate this prison, "it's the smell". Agent Smith had some pretty good points. I have to get out.

What kind of evil coward won't give a man a chance to even run? To the shithead(s) who won't let me out: how the fuck would you like to be imprisoned in this nightmare torture-to-suicide system? How would you like it?

Nov 28, 2014. If I were free...
- I'd be so elated I'd likely never utter a word about this hell again. For one thing nothing good can come from it. Myself as an individual talking about the topics on this site to anyone in the general sheeple public will never be believed and thus serves as no threat.
- I've already spilled my guts here and on the air.
- After all this, as a free man I'd spend the rest of my days staring at the sea in a disassociative trance.
- Being penniless, homeless is fine. I don't care. I fantasize about it actually. It's a paradox because I like money, or liked it. I just want my life back. I want my freedom. I want exemption.

Nov 12, 2014. I believe the only way I'll get to experience freedom again is for a major cataclysm to occur. Where there's confusion there's opportunity. I'd probably only be free for 5 minutes, who knows. But I'd love it. Anything that forces these roaches to let me out, anything. 

Nov 1, 2014 Security would have to be the number one concern of the main admin controllers of the super soldier program. Keeping me imprisoned in the RNM prison doesn't provide security, it destroys it. They accomplish the exact opposite by keeping me imprisoned in the program. They HAVE accomplished the exact opposite to put it mildly and the damage just keeps coming, residually at the very least, and in other ways. The power of the printed word is amazing.

Supposedly TPTB now call the Internet: "Enemy Communications Platform."

If you want to know how things on this planet, particularly in the NWO West, work just read this site thoroughly. I recommend caching it to your computer. You'll see one day that every single word here is accurate.

Another treat to come to NE will be discussion of the fake Nordic Pleiadian Alien typically used by Navy SEAL black ops as the supreme 'good guy'. I've exposed and kicked in the nuts mercilessly the grey and reptilian scams. 'Abductees' who have spent many years still beleiving this hoax are no different than the common moron who thought Professional Wrestling was real or the literal retard who believes the 9-11 cover story scam about Muslims with boxcutters. It's time to talk a bit more about the Nordic, Pleiades scam. Actually you can jump straight to the blog section on Nordics "Tall Blondes" to get right to it, that covers it pretty well.

While I'm at it: Crop Circles. I have it on good authority these are done via DEW's. I don't really, personally, know or care but that would be my bet. I knew a 'remote viewer' guru who takes people to crop circle sites in England and he said they always experience psychic, mystical types of feelings at the sites. He also said many of his students go on to experience alien abductions. Hmmmm.

Oct 31, 2014 Another 'milab synthetic dream' from 2010. Endless tornadoes, people in exodus fleeing Atlanta northward to Tennessee, being pummelled by the micro-tornadoes. The sky was totally black with very low black tornadic clouds, rain, lightning etc...  And another milab dream from same time frame of people fleeing across Tennessee along I-24 and roads around it, huge flames were being sent down from the sky. Also, a wall of fire was moving along across the state and people were running from it. Scenes from small towns where people were trying to get away from it but the towns were being engulfed in the firestorms. There's plenty more of these from the pre-Navy days. I'll get to them in no particular order or schedule.

Oct 22, 2014
I have to wonder what they gain by keeping me in here.

Something else I also have to wonder about is how many prominent figures in media, especially whistle-blower truth media, and other highly successful business people have discovered this site and it was the 'straw that broke the camels back' for them. They quietly packed up and moved to another country. I can see someone starting to figure things out, to see through the haze and research and they stumble on this site. From this point on there's two ways to play it, become an activist or basically gasp and shut up and try to do the best you can, ideally leaving America before it's too late. Not to say there's anywhere you can go to escape electronic torture once you are put on the list. Here's what's happened. The economy is good because money is totally artificial and arbitrary, totally conjured, nothing more than arbitrarily created digits in cyberspace. Does anyone of importance even discuss the national debt anymore, other than to lie about it? With nerual frequency mind-control systems used on any pesky creditor to the magic banking system, the rules and reality are simply re-made as often as needed. It's all in the unwitting victim's head and their head is controlled by the undetectable electronic man-made neural software which is controlled by operators of the shadow agencies of the shadow government who the masses are unaware even exist.

Oct 21, 2014
Email: "About ---- and ---- being conned on the grey alien hoax, it's useless. People who have lived this lie for so long would take a huge ego blow to acknowledge that it's all misdirection, a cover. ---- was into xx and ufo's and that's how they picked up the alien hoax. Every super soldier I know is way worse though. They have no idea what's really being done to them and they propagate this crap making total fools out of themselves. Sad and funny at the same time. The SEAL handlers told me around April 2012 that the alien thing is a total hoax and they stopped doing it. Ever since that time I haven't had a single 'alien abduction' screen memory.  It's a total joke. It's nothing more than a movie being played out in your own mind with them directing it."

Oct 16, 2014
I don't blog much about my 'super soldier' milab abductions/missions of the past. Many of them I'll never forget, in fact, I don't think I'll ever forget any of them. I may start posting them for posterity. One of the most profound happened in 2010 under the first group that had me then. The setting was in a large office building in the financial district of the city I live in. Myself and a lady who I used to work for were in an office on the top floor. There were at least 20 others there. There was a counter top lining the wall like a bar and there were computer screens on the wall above the counter top. A number of us were sitting on stools looking at the screens. The abductors were showing us something on the screens. A man maybe 5 to 10 years older than me was two stools down. I remember what he looked like with his grey hair and partial beard, in business clothes. He stood up and went into hysterics, crying and screaming out 'humans deserve to die, humans have to be killed off, humans have to go'. I got up and went over to him as he started to collapse to the floor and told him 'It's ok, it's going to be ok, I see it too but it's going to be ok' - words like that. Exactly what we were shown I'll never know. Under this first group almost all of the abductions were scenes like this. They showed prison camps with whites being tortured or shot or macabre conditions. Quite interesting. Anyway, it's hard to describe in words this particular experience and the sentiment of it. The mans words say it all. That's what it was all about. In the next scene I saw the woman business-owner who I'd worked for in a nearby building years before. She was in the middle of the room. There were more people in the office at that time. I walked to the large glass window to the North and saw the sky was entirely black, just a huge wall of very low-set black clouds like I'd never seen, rolling towards us.
This building was a common setting for abductions. I remember the red-haired woman (business owner) being present in a number of the scenes there... standing in the lobby by the elevator and seeing her. I always had the impression there was something going on beneath the building. I remember abduction scenes where I and an 'ex' were in a kind of high-speed train underground. There were a number of scenarios involving being underground in urban areas at a train or subway type station.

Oct 14, 2014 The incredible thing is I actually took the site down for a full week a couple weeks ago. It made no difference. To those who hate it thank TPTP. Let's play a game called Everyody Loses!

Oct 12, 2014
A TALE OF TWO BLACK OPS GROUPS - Or was it a change of management?

Initially I was pulled into an anti-White group. The images of military I saw wore olive green uniforms. I had numerous interesting ‘abduction’ type experiences with vivid themes of waging war on white populations. Much more can be said on this. I’ll say now, never was there a single experience involving harming non-whites. It was extreme anti-white genocide themes.

Next, the Navy experiences began and the exact opposite themes were played. Mostly these were anti-Jewish and anti-Black. Very heavy themes of urban-based civil war against blacks, and very vicious Nazi extremism against Jews. I describe the SEAL group as heavily fundamentalist Christian White Nazi Extremist. Not just separatists. This may sound too ridiculous but be true but it’s true. 

Sept 18, more suicide programming from him tonight, and other sick stuff.

Sept 13, 2014 - More sadistic destructive tortures are back. More stuff this morning. While overall things have lightened up some, they handlers can't take it very well when I simply recall all the tortures they've done to me over the past 33 months and the rage and wounds I feel. I've openly said before, I should have been put in a trauma unit this time last year. Now the handlers have to live with my pain and deep damage.

Sept 7, 2014
America's MKULTRA mind control program was launched in 1953

The physical equivalent of electronic neural torture, mental rape is this. Take a good look.
Electronic neural torture = meth

I heard a rumor once that officers in the American military are now only promoted if their IQ is below a certain score. If that's true it explains a lot of things. 

Sept 6, 2014 Going into the 33rd month of hell on Earth under the Beastware system. 33 months of unreality. I'm neutral in all human conflicts but it doesn't matter. I'm going down. You can't fight town hall. You can only take care of yourself. All I know is what comes around goes around.

Aug 26, 2014. Who would want to be associated in any way with secret agencies such as the special ops military and their likes? We're talking about the darkest of dark. EVIL. This is the real Mafia. And EVIL rules this planet, that's a fact.

I think back a lot to when I was alive. My life was full of inner and outer happiness. Life was life. Very often problems that I thought were big turned out to be minor and I ended up with nice little windfalls, extram money and time. I reflect back alot. I pretend I can go back in time, knowing what I do now. Things would be very different. I'll be posting advice on how to avoid being a TI and targeted in general by the Spy state we are trapped in.  How to Avoid Becoming a TI

Now I can't enjoy anything. It's not my mind. How I wish that weren't true. This is something the massess can't comprehend. They say things that were only true in the past, that applied during the Human era which is over for active TI's... things like: 'your thoughts create your reality. You manifest what you think about,' etc.  If they only knew.  I blog this constantly: I have no private thoughts of any kind including memories.  I am not allowed to have real dreams. Any, and I mean any, new experience I have that isn't synthetic is captured by the 'soul catcher' technology. You should think about that profoundly, those of you who can think.

Aug 25, 2014. Is a collapse of America possible? For the sake of Targeted Individuals, lets hope so.

Aug 24, 2014. Has the American military industrial complex become a War Crime in and of itself?

Is the American government-military-ind-complex everything it propogandizes North Korea, Iran, Syria and occasionally Russia to be? NO. It's worse. Immeasurably worse. All those, namely black ops military, make it the torture state that it is. Torture seems to be the one area the militarized bastardized bipolar fruitloop circus that calls itself America seems to excel at these days. Mark my words that as you're reading this people around the world including America are being tortured to death -- by the American military/government.

Aug 22, 2014. I think back to how I was before my  torture prison sentence started. It's unreal. I fantasize about it in disbelief. I truly can't comprehend now what it was like to be free, how magic it was, how incredible it was to have private thoughts, to have real dreams. Another TI I know related the same feeling a while back.

What will the end result of all this be for this planet? A gas cloud in the asteroid belt. I bet ya.

Is it too much to ask for help from the Red Cross? Should they not be setting up centers to treat victims of electronic torture all across America? By the way, the states hardest hit are California, Texas and Florida.

You know, everytime I see a Tall Grey I hear that old Edgar Winter song, Frankenstein, somewhere in my e-zombied head. How's Haliburton doing these days? Can the Frankensteins of the beltway and black ops projects, if you will, fish out some reparation checks to their domestic terror victims for starters?

Advisory to those thinking of joining the military. There's nothing wrong with the military per-se.  The problem in 2014 America though is that military personnel are more likely to become targets for milab super-soldier programs. Don't want to be a de-humanized lab-rat, stay out. Anyone with a military background past or present, from my observations, is a better candidate for the MK-Ultra nightmare.

By the way, who is it that's paying the butcher's bill now and in wars to come? Is it generally the poor or is it the offspring of the Tall Greys and the big-wigs you see on your Isis Ferguson (the new name for your TV)? It's all like a big reality game show, the stuff you see on Isis Ferguson. The hosts are the elite and/or their technical assistants and the lower classes are the entertainment fodder, the clowns. Everbody wins! A whole lot like the Cheech and Chong magic trick scene you see above. Evil and stupid and cheap-amusement-entertainment-cravers get along famously together. Ain't that a peach?

To clarify, Cheech & Chong were great. What you see on your Isis Ferguson and in theatres today is pure sewage.

Aug 21, 2014. Here's the leader of the Tall Greys explaining why I need to remain in the Super Soldier program. Sean Happity, a Draco Reptiloid, had the Tall Grey Lizard King on for a full segment on this.

Don't be confused by this TG's references to Isis . These are merely cover stories made up of code words for the more astute class of super soldier.
I'm confused as to what Isis is actually.

I know it to be Isis Ferguson since that's all I see and hear when I have on any form of news. It sucks that a TV doesn't own me, or I mean that I don't own a TV but I plan on getting one once I save up enough money, and I'll hump it in the middle of the night. That's better than actually watching it. I'm going to name my new TV Isis Ferguson.  Everyone should name their TV since it's a part of the family right?

If you don't believe Tall Greys exist just ask this former Tall Grey abductee. I still remember an encounter I had with them on a highway in  the desert about 2 a.m. one morning back in 2010 or 2011. Though the American desert is very far away from where I live, there I was in the middle of the highway and with a relative as well. They held an oval shaped device to my groin which took semen from me, then they put up a big screen of some kind across an empty highway to show me something important but I never did remember what it was. There was a column of about 30+ of the lanky Tall Greys straggling along the highway.  As I was awaking to the screen memory - um I mean the true memories of the real experience (laugh) that it was, a hologram of some kind was displayed over my bed of a blonde haired man who liked me and a grey-hybrid female who did not like me. The blonde guy told me things were difficult but that they'd be alright.  This was back before the navy took over. The 'abductions' stopped when the navy came along with their mentaciding mkultra prison program.

I still remember the way the first black ops group (greys) would 'pull' me at the begining of an abduction. It was always scary and weird. Mind control victim Jim Sparks describes the process well in his book.

I hope some Hollywood type doesn't steal my name Isis Ferguson but I can see it happening because it's also a hot name for a porn star.

Them creepy greys got exposed and stuff.  Innocence lost.


Oh, the hell with it... I'll tell you about the Tall Blondes AKA Pleiadians, Nordics, whatever you want to call them. Pictured below are the successors to Semjase who serve as space ambassadors to Obama. They cleverly snuck their way into the cast in a movie called White Chicks as a form of disclosure to the public.

My first Nordic abduction was in June 2011. For a fake transhumanist remote neural mind trip experience - meaning artificial, it was incredible. I still remember every detail. I had around a half dozen Nordic 'abductions' in all. Most of them were rescue mission. I'm still astounded when I hear super soldiers doing big interviews talk about their "missions." Super soldiers or stupid soldiers? In fairness, with so little info on this stuff in the past, yes it would be very difficult to believe anything other than what was being put in your head by the people doing this to you.

Nordics are the GOOD guys. You'll hear some mind-control ('abductee') victims say: no, there are bad factions of Nordics too who gave in and sided with the greys or some crap like that. But basically in the genre of man-made aliens they are the supreme good guys who want to save humanity.

The drugs they (covert t-humanist military) use on the victims are very powerful. After Nordic 'abductions' I usually felt super elated with a sense of goodness and good will, wanting to be positive and only open to positive news etc.

I had a major Nordic rescue mission on Thanksgiving night 2011 where I (we - myself and a nordic) rescued a woman being held by greys at an undergound base beneath a building in the city I live in. There were some elements in the experience that later made me suspicious that it was fake. Nonetheless it left me in an artificially high mood. That morning however, when I walked outside I saw military planes flying overhead, single file, and they didn't stop - all day long, everywhere I went I had military planes flying directly over me. Then a couple weeks later the first transhumanist super soldier surgery came. This time I was taken from my home physically sometime during the night, and I awoke under heavy anesthesia to a creepy screen memory. It took over a week for the effects of the anesthesia to wear off. I've said more than I wanted to... The 'alien abduction' experiences tapered off and finally ceased a couple months later - replaced by a more personal, constant, worse form of the 'program'.

By the way, I have not had a real dream since December 2011 when I was advanced to the hardcore TI version of the 'program' and no longer just an 'abductee' milab. Not one. Every 'dream' / nightmare I have is a synthetic mind movie created by a handler. In the past they were almost always nightmares to varying degrees.


Aug 20, 2014 Note to self - I supposedly have a real live kid (son) from the navy breeding program. I don't believe this was disinfo/hoax. Just thought I'd type that out for what it's worth. I told them repeatedly I didn't care. I'd rather assume it is a hoax since it's a moot point because he's a property of the super-state and not for me to see. They even told me I'd never even be allowed around these kids anyway. Standard stuff to add to the trauma. They show idiot fake-alien-believing milabs fake images of them with their 'hybrid alien grey child' and crap like that. That's as close as they come to telling them that they're being used in genetic research and breeding programs. Most of these poor 'alien abductee' victims never figure it out.

One of the biggest themes and first things they show you in the super soldier program is that "something is going to happen," meaning there will be major wars or other collapse type events in the future, and that you'll be a part of it. This runs the range from total economic collapse to alien invasion. You're being trained/prepared for it. Lucky you! If being in the state I'm in is preparedness and strength I'd hate to see the opposite. I want my specially bred son to take my place in these future battles. I'm too old and don't know how you take sides amidst total chaos anyway.

I've lately visualized a shrink checking out this site. I can see the look on his face when he pulls it out of his hands. It's indescribable in words, you'd have to see it. He's deeply troubled and almost in a kind of grief. He wants to help me. "I help people," he often says to himself. But now his faith in humanity and all he knows has been crushed by the worst case of extreme clinical insanity he's ever professionally encountered or even heard of. "This person MUST be committed immediately to a maximum security asylum for life," he says. But that's where he is. I was actually free, which is where the NWO navy scum came into the scene.

I have to admit something though. Never in my life (which ended in December 2011 when this electronic prison program started) did I think anything like this could ever happen to me, could ever be real. At moments it's still surreal. It's a sign of sanity that there's still a part of me that refuses to believe any of this is real.

Aug 19, 2014 I remember a speech a former CIA scientist gave primarily for TI's. He said we just have to be patient. It will take time for the bad guys to be overthrown. There's little we can do about these powerful technologies right now, unfortunately, they're in the hands of evil people, he said. Really, evil people rule? Evil and its best and necessary friend, stupid. 

Oh, about Robin Williams. He was iced. Simple as that. Anyone with an IQ above the trainable range can figure that out. This is one of TPTB's cute little tricks - murdering you and framing it as a suicide. Like Susan Watkins. They took this man's beautiful, successful life and destroyed it in a macabre, embarrassing, debasing evil way, marring memories of him and his name and legend, turning something beautiful and gifted in to something disturbing and sick in a sense. They're going to get a huge bang for the buck on this. Aside from personal reasons for killing this awesome guy consider this point: How many times are the masses going to hear the word 'suicide' in months to come and equate it with many things relating memetically to themselves both individually and as numerous powerful societal group identities? And they'll hear it from 'the voice' -- you know, that trusted TV newscaster quality voice that's required to even be a TV or radio host. 'The voice' conveys a tone of truth, sincerity and authority. It sounds legitimate. When the sheeple here it, subconsciously they accept it as truth. They will hear the word 'we' a lot, linking them into the herd, placing a warm arm around them and making them cozy in their mediocrity and loyalty to a generalized, multipurpose lie machine.

So, on the topic of evil, yes it's not limited to just America and the West. I guess you could call it part of the human condition. I remember this brainless, sandal-wearing love-and-light drip talking about "the glorious future of mankind." Yup. You mean the glorious future of a gas cloud in the asteroid belt.

What kind of country murders one of its most uplifting celebrities and in such a macabre scarring way? An evil one.  Break out the Abu Gharaid pictures as a reminder. Ever stumble across any of these on the net? It's unreal.

What the psychopaths did to RW they can do to anyone. Remember David Carradine? How many other 'suicides' in retrospect were nasty smear murders? I think we have a new term: Smear Murder. Not only does the psychopath kill the victim biologically but they grotesquely butcher his image and cast an indelible ugly, scary, disturbing pall over his memory. I don't enjoy writing this kind of stuff - I'd rather be a funny - so why am I? Because of the high probability they'll do something like this to me. Some of the lower level handlers did try to kill me numerous times. They also would tell me constantly outright and subliminally to kill myself. I don't know how many times I woke up in the middle of the night to a handler's voice telling me to kill myself when they thought I was still asleep. 

There are neuroscience tricks they use to block my memory of many traumas and tortures they did to me. They use very good neural-programming to rewire me to make me functional on the surface to keep me going. I can't truly get real trauma counseling which I need while I'm still under RNM. The handlers can't take this. How could they? The first step in trauma treatment is to break away from the attackers but you can't.

One of the most important things a TI should do is an anti-suicide Affidavit which perfectly explains what's being done to them and calls for a full investigation should something unfortunate happen. I did this and it's on file. I've also taken other steps to damage them if they kill me.

The other thing a TI can do is keep in mind the bigger picture. This is a war. It's invisible and asymetrical but very much war. We're victims on the front line.  Against the backdrop of this reality it makes the whole thing more easy to grasp. and a little less painful. 

What do the Chet Zar pictures on the left symbolize? My existence. What's left of my mind and soul. Truly.  It was therapeutic looking at these. I need to do it more, maybe sketch some of my own.  You'll be electromagnetic diarrhea one day too.

Nearing the anniversary of hero Aaron Alexis' famous response to his torturers. RIP brother.

Hey speaking of anniversaries... Starseed Resistance is going on its second year. It was about two years ago I started this blog around 3 in the morning while being tortured and sleep deprived by the navy handlers.

Anyone in gov't checking out this site? (ha ha).
Can you tell us, gov't man, is it true that you refer to the Internet now as the "Enemy Communication Platform" ?

Being in the TI community you get to learn a lot of inside terms and concepts like this. If learning this stuff is a silver lining to being in a sadistict torture labrat program then I guess I'll take it, but I'd rather be deaf, dumb, blind and left alone.

I'd love to hear from some of the doctors at the CDC who used to work with me. Where have you been? Lets do lunch.

Aug 18, 2014. BURIED ALIVE. What's it like to be electronic, to be in a force field (frequency fence) every second? There are times when I actually smell electronic to myself. My head is constantly ringing with a tinnitus like a modem that's establishing a connection, it sounds like that and a computer that's revving up and overheating. And it's slowly killing me. I don't feel human. I'm not organic, natural at all. In fact there is no 'me'. 'Me' is now a body with most of the life-force removed or deadened, just a hybrid human-machine body in an  electronic bitstream. Really to be very honest it's more like a corpse. I think the term here is ZOMBIE. I feel weak and powerless and psychologically like a defeated doormat. I exercise some but not like I used to. I will never do anything but slowly die under this labrat termination program.

Another aspect of hell here too is that that I'm guaranteed to lose at everything important I'm involved in.  I'm always in a weakened, disoriented state. In 31 months of extreme trauma/torture I haven't had one single second where the electronics were turned off and I was myself and could rest and think in private. Not one second. I'M A MACHINE, A ROBOT ZOMBIE. I'd cut my left hand off to be free. This isn't life.


August 14, 2014 I saw this video in Nicaruagua and it struck a chord with me. The place still has a piece of me. While I am now a de-spiritualized prisoner forced into Nihilism I do believe in love still. It's like a rare gem. It's just the essence of it, the energy of it.

Do I relish revenge on my torturers? Yes but I don't seek it. They murdered the entire human species, I swear it. What's coming to them is beyond anything I even want to think of. This is a pool I wouldn't want to even dip my little toe into. Who are they - the super soldier program bigshots -? An errand boy for the Illuminati. I am handcuffed to these mentaciding butchers. It's like that T-shirt that says "I'm with Stupid." Would the "Illuminati" have released me from this torture program at this point? Yep, I bet they would have.

I'm fucked and accept it but not like they are in the long run.

Those here for the first time: This site is very very raw and you should distrust everything on it! Lies Lies Lies! Disinfo!
Really this is for people who are losing their lives and worse by these evil involuntary transhumanist projects. Any regular sheep ('the filth' by some nomenclatures) or love and light sissy who ends up here will not read past the top banner - and will flee in horror to their refrigerator for a bucket of Ben & Jerry's, Budweiser and buffalo wings and waddle to their big-screen tv room and gorge their newly truth-poisoned heads with their life-numbing pesticides to seek relief.  Or flee possibly to their bedroom for a dildo. Have gender roles in the West not been totally reversed? This is where the dildo comes in brilliantly. Totally politically correct, even if it's white. It doesn't discriminate and caters to both sexes (even if that's not easily distinguishable in 2014 America).

At the end of this page, if you're a misanthrope too raise your hand.

Oh, about the latest sad news this week. We (society) lost a great person to a terrible, deadly 'disease.' Now, how is your mental health? Are you taking the "medicines" you need? Have you been in for an evaluation lately? Just start with some counseling - it can't hurt. And right off the bat the first question asked by the 'counselor': do you own guns? No but I punch the clown with my left foot. Want to watch? That's what I always say.

August 11, 2014 Since December 2011 a small team of special ops Navy (mostly SEAL) personnel have monitored my thoughts every single second. When I say monitored what I mean more fully is that they torture me whenever I have a thought they don't like. These idiots have never opened a psychology book in their life.  Aside from unbelievable MASSIVE trauma, they've created deep complexes, outrageous complexes. Can you imagine somebody telling you night and day every second "don't think about kangaroos"? How do you then not think about them? And then they constantly remind you to not think about what they're reminding you to not think about. Can you imagine watching TV for 2 days straight and all the while being told not to watch it or think about it and then told afterwards to never think about what you saw and heard? And when you do think about it - which of course you naturally do - they torture you. They call this torture "getting revenge." They train their torturers (handlers) to "get revenge" when you have an unpleasant thought or any thought you're not supposed to have. to have.

Then these morons expect you to be one of them! To be on their "team". My hatred for them is beyond description. The tortures go way way way beyond what I've just described, although they've lessened in recent months. It's still CONSTANTLY like having your mind in a steel tooth trap. Imagine a wolf with it's leg caught in a steel trap. Excactly. Or being claustrophopic and locked inside of a small closet. It's like having your head in a vice. You have no private thoughts, feelings, memories. All gone, and in my case all totally trashed and perverted. I can no longer think about any family member, living or deceased in a positive, non-visually perverted or sick way.

They'll make your mouth or other part of your face twitch or do something of a sick nature to you physically then in the background in your brain whisper "do you feel that"? thinking that their voice is coming through subliminally. Their system sucks so bad, and I'm so used to it, I hear everything in perfect crystal clear detail. It's like a loud cell phone in my head, masked only sometimes by a loud tinnitus ringing.

31 fucking months of "don't have a thought, don't have a thought, don't have a thought, don't have a thought..... " That's what most of this system amounts to. Absolute thug morons standing by waiting for you to have a thought or feeling then reacting to it. Imagine it, and imagine it still going on for someone who they've tortured worse than an ABU GHARAID prisoner who now has unending complexes and trauma and can only think of negative, dark, macabre, twisted and gross things.... Secondly, you've heard of a bitstream. Well this is a "shitstream". The effect this system has on me is to totally kill the SELF. It instead demodulates/converts my thoughts/feelings etc into electomagnetic soup transmitting it back and forth to the handlers. From the very begining 'I' automatically involuntarily spewed negative insults and disgusting thoughts/words. I have ZERO control over the cloned computerized region of my brain that interacts with these NAZI monsters. I have a good general understanding of what's happening, the distributed processing model. Many victims do. Read Robert Duncan or watch Jesee Ventura's Brain Invaders documentary. An average person with any intelligence can see how it's generally set up. Computerization of the human brain is slowly being leaked into mainstream media but only under the lie of something that's futuristic and 'under development'.

First of all, who came up with this system? You'd think scientists at DARPA and NSA would be smart.  This system is designed to mentally rape, plunder, interrogate and torture the subject to death. Period. It murders the SELF - and you have teams of personnel interacting with the hijacked real-time pain and wreckage of a victim they're presently torturing and the ongoing  psychological/emotional pain damage they've already created which compounds.  HEY NSA AND DARPA. YOUR SYSTEM IS A SLOPPY BARBARIC BUTCHERING PIECE OF SHIT.  METAPHORICALLY, IT'S NOT A FIGHTER JET, MISSLE OR M-16, IT'S A SCRAP OF 2 BY 4 WOOD. IT'S A CRUDE, SLOPPY ELECTRONIC TORTURE SYSTEM.

Here's an excerpt from another TI - he wrote this shortly after his targetting started.
"It’s quite simple really, yet brilliant at the same time. After an individual is selected for targeting, his or her unique brain signature is mapped using wireless technology. Then, radio signals, not unlike a simple cell phone signal, is sent from a cell phone tower directly into an individual’s brain. This technology is known by several terms, one of which is V2K, which stands for ‘voice to skull’.  "
Description of v2k

30 plus months of "don't think this, don't think that.... " constantly. Manual, live operator thought control by the most notorious evil torturing human-rights violators this planet has ever seen - AMERICAN MILITARY.

The milab version of RNM is an electronic straight jacket. They want linear, computer-like, meaningless dick-and-jane 2nd grade grammar type thoughts-converted-to-words out of you and when they get anything else they 'get revenge'.

It's gotten better to some degree, the most horrific tortures are gone, the worst, most evil torturers are gone (it appears), but the straight jacket is still on, and anything can happen anytime. This is a termination system. The good news is that due to it's inherent barbarity news of it is spreading and those newly targetted can get up to speed quickly on what's going on. Maybe sooner than expected it won't be a secret anymore at all. Human incompetence and bad judgment is the one factor they have against them.

FYI - How did my targeting initially start (before the hardcore mkultra synthetic-telepathy and RNM)?

With fake alien abductions. "Alien abductees" are duped mind control victims pulled into the NWO as transhumanist labrats or other 'persons of interest'. They have no idea what's really happening to them. The cat has come out of the bag to some extent here. I've been on TI support calls where people have openly (correctly) stated that "alien abductions" are really NSA-based abductions where the victim is left with screen memories and sometimes other gimmicks to convince them they've been abducted by greys, reptilians or nordics. I know of a mainstream reporter who impressed me right off the bat in saying, 'oh yeah, it's common knowledge alien abductions are done by the military'. I'm glad I've contributed to debunking this hoax over the past two years.


Knowledge of Targeted Individuals -- electromagnetic tracking, mind control, torture, zombie gangstalking -- is spreading.  It  actually has the characteristics of a movement. That is, knowledge is spreading deep, slowly and powerfully, establishing deep roots that won't go away. TPTB miscaluclated in my opinion. It's the underwater wave, the one you don't see coming. The truth on this scourge now is like an archipelago of small fires scattered all around and instead of burning out they are getting hotter and stronger even though they don't appear to. All that's needed is a good wind to come along, and presto, they connect and we have a raging three-state forest fire.

All that's needed is for bigger 'alternative' media talk show/news shows to simply start mentioning Targeted Individuals and their claims. (The disinfo on gangstalking won't work). Many smaller talk shows already do talk about it. It WILL naturally go upstream. The house of cards will collapse. You can't have talk show hosts with an audience of tens of millions of people (who in turn talk to their friends and post comments etc) talking about TI's, especially if they tie in the human wi-fi aspect. At first they will slam and discredit TI's as psychos. And that's fine. There's NO SUCH THING AS BAD PUBLICITY. 



So TPTB have to make their next major move before the herd gets a clue, assuming there is some major agenda.
August 10, 2014 I have a friend who said a little while ago something to the effect that this planet will end up a gas cloud in the Asteroid Belt when this is all said and done. Funny how this observation comes out time and again by those with any degree of intelligence and observation of fact. It's a tiny number of people to be sure which makes it smack of even more truth. What the masses think and say is bs.  Lies are shouted. The truth is whispered in private.

Hey, here's another maxim: There's a difference between power and control.

I think of the myriad ways this applies to the responsible parties in the Navy super soldier program who keep me in this botched RNM frequency-fence mkultra prison program. 

By the way, I'm not a nationalist. I'm not an anything other than an Nihilist. America isn't a nation so it's impossible to be a nationalist. If I weren't a Nihilist thanks to 30+ months of soul-raping mentacide and physical electronic torture, I'd be a Globalist because relative to being a prisoner in America, what else could you be in terms of ideology at this point?  The only idea I have that can help people is to start a group that declares themselves non-combatants on this planet in every way, abiding by the Cosmic law of non-interference. They are exempt from all agenda's in return and are not electronically targeted (totally exempt - harmless nobodies like Quakers). You should say, it's not my job or obligation to interfere in destiny. I'm not getting involved. Think of those imbeciles who go on and on about having a "soul contract." Did you know you signed up to be in this hellhole? That's right, you agreed to be incarnated here as a fallen mistake, a fur-less chimp who was intentionally designed to only use 10% of it's brain. You agreed to come here and be a martyr! Take a stroll through an honest history book. I want nothing to do with humans at all now. Neither do the people who run this place; that's why they're creating a new version. That's if you believe the conspiracy stuff anyway, which is to say, the material they openly publish to the global public. And most of the population is indeed too stupid to believe their honest presentments and plans for them, let alone object to it, and thus consents.


Now back to the handy super soldier program's results for this planet. It's either the gas cloud in the asteroid belt or something like what happened to this place...

August 6, 2014. Well we're nearing the anniversary of the Navy Yard shooting. I love, honor and lyonize Aaron Alexis. So much so that I am keeping his picture on my cell phone and a framed printout on my wall. Why? In my opinion he may be Jesus Christ. The real one. If there is a Jesus it's Aaron. He's not dead, he LIVES. He was dead as a RNM, Synthetic Telepathy victim but now he's alive. Any and every type of metaphysics or entity that I turn to in prayer is fully real-time captured and recorded by the ELF soul-catcher prison system that I'm trapped in. The Navy rips off even the tiniest organic feelings - even still. I am no longer spiritual. That's long gone. They killed that with their electronic technology and inhuman torture. Well now that I worship Aaron (my Jesus) they will reap the hell he will have for them.
Aaron is an American hero and patriot. I've already covered that.
Aaron acted in self defense for himself and for mankind in attacking the forces who he believed were torturing him to death. The twelve victims were killed by Aaron's psychopath handlers, not Aaron.

I was talking to another TI and good friend a while back. He is under much of the same system that I am. He said "I don't know what you call this but it isn't life." It was the way he said it. Only other TI's under electronic torture/imprisonment could understand. The thing is, it really isn't death either so it would be wrong to call it a waking death. Robert Duncan described it best in his first book The Matrix Deciphered  as a personal customized hell. I think it's actually beyond the common view of hell. I'd rather be in that version than this one. I'd at least have my mind back I think. I'd have private thoughts and feelings, maybe even on occasion real dreams. What am I? An evil bitstream of electro-mental shit. This is their grand accomplishment.

Peace, Love and Life to you Aaron.

Is this not the hottest porn? I'm sick of being teased. This is the only solution I know of that saves us. CME Hottie
And this is the problem:
THE FALL OF MAN - that's what this website should be called. I'm considering a name change. By the way, all credits for this website and any other related published material go DIRECTLY to the Special Ops Military that Administrates the Super Soldier Programs (Navy especially). They pulled me into the Program, tortured me forcing me into the TI  truth/awareness/whistleblower community. I preferred a quiet neutral lifestyle. I heard another TI say the other night she was proud to be a "fighter,  a martyr"... "my philosophy is you have to die sometime anyway" she said.  Well that's not my philosophy. I owe nobody nothing. I want my freedom at all costs and to live as long as I can. It's not my job to try to save the world from itself.  Nobody ever made anyone else healthier by making themselves sick, made anyone richer by making themselves poorer. I'm forced into pushing the limit with America's secret intel police groups by publishing this crap, which is a form of suicide in and of itself. I want out of hell.

picture by David Dees  
2014-7-17 When do I and other TI's get our freedom? Or at least when is there a major change, for example, the global agenda advancing into the next major phase? I predict sometime in 2017 after a Republican president or Hillary is 'elected'. It seems to be the pattern that major false flag attacks/wars are initiated under Republicans now. Hillary is a special cyborg though. The economy 'recovers' under a ''Democrat" but they don't do a good job with defense thus when the next borg gets sworn into office they soon have to step up to the plate and go to war to fix the lax security caused by the previous "Democrat" borg. In reality though there's no difference between any cia president, they're all identical borgs serving the agenda. Replican vs. Democrat... It's like comparing Budweiser to Miller; they both suck and make you sick to your gut. Libertarians are the same, maybe we can call them Coors. It's hysterical.  Russia and China should play their cards exactly how they have been, just watching America, Britain and company off themselves internally. All great things are destroyed internally aren't they? Of course geo-politics is sort of a fake paradigm except to the extent that there are still some real countries that still exist like Russia. In contrast, America, Canada, Australia, Britain are all pimped out franchises. As the David Dees graphic above clarifies, it's all a falsification.  TPTB have time on their side. They can take their sweet time and roll out an anti-climactic global imprisonment - final re-architecture. No need for huge false flags but there probably will be a major one in a few years. All bets are off. Meanwhile my mind (and those of many others) and my entire person is tortured every second in a mentacide slow-motion murder machine by weapons that are banned by the Geneva Convention.  As I've said before, everything my torturers have/are/will use me for in their sick projects will backfire on them catastrophically. The incredible thing is they know this via their own queries. Fools. It's just too redundant to talk about anymore at this point.
Manuaga is a funky town that is pretty safe. Oh yeah, who is underwriting - who engineered this whole thing? It's my old friend Don from NSW. I hate his guts, I hate this sick transhumanist group. HATE. I have some things to say about what they're up to - that's the problem with using a milab torture victim via rnm/syntel. Despite being massively sleep deprived and under powerful neural management to keep me falling for their scams in order to 'get free' I still figure out the gameplan. When I do I kick them in the nuts as hard as I can. Why the fuck doesn't the cia or another group take these idiots out? I want nothing to do with any of this. All I want is my freedom. This guy is a total moron. How much can you take? This will blow up in your faces like no tomorrow. Somebody with a brain please step in. It's not me. 

Time for an update:
Nicaragua July 10, 2014

Are you a gangstalking (organized stalking) victim? It's simple, as the link below points out. Everyone (even animals believe it or not) are simply remote controlled around you, taken over by demand and controlled just like puppets.  There's been a flurry of spoofs by shills in the TI support group community lately to try to re-bolster the idiotic lie that there are millions of "gang members," including family and friends, literally everyone around you, who are being paid to mess with you. The below link goes overboard on movie references... but he knows exactly what he's talking about. His information is 100% correct..
How Gangstalking Actually Works

Jan 25, 2014 This site would have been taken down months ago if I had been released. It is still active and now serves as an unabashed whistleblower site becuase of, and per, the direct order of Donald and a handful of Navy MKUltra controllers who told me to talk publicly about covert mind-control related technology and operations.

April 17, 2014 - When does it end? The best solution is to let me go, period. Others have gotten out, why won't they let me out? It may be I'm stuck in this electronic prison hell with no hope.  Let me out and this site comes down, simple as that.

April 22, 2014 - Contacting human rights groups all over the planet to report the crimes against me and petition for my freedom now. More on this to come.

Any insider, RNM handler, who can come forward please do so. Ask for amnesty. Talk to the Inspector General in Navy Special Ops at MacDill and in San Diego, as well as Dept of Navy officials at the Pentagon. 

Amnesty International is catching on?  It's a start anyway. Hey Amnesty Int'l - do you really think these monsters commit these atrocities 'legally' and only to Muslims and only in other countries that 'allow' torture? You tell the truth in a careful, acceptable way then cover your ass at the end.   


Chemtrails aerosoled over me on the spot everywhere I went in Washington, weekend of July 13, 2013, including an unreal display like few I've ever seen, directly over the Capitol Building, as I approached. See link further down on page for the youtube video. I've had localized chemtrails over me every day since December 2011, directed by the Navy.  This website will start covering this subject - geo-engineering and mind control, black ops NWO secrets - in greater technical detail now.  The American people and mankind are in deep trouble. They have no idea what's been built around them. Anyone who is not afraid of the NSA and the rest of the secret police-state feel free to scrape as much intelligence as you wish off this ficticious messed up website. I'd suggest caching the pages or text on your pc and revisitng infrequently.

More frequency intensity coming - DOD document    Feb 23, 2014

Letter to Jesse Jackson    Jan 29, 2014

Summary: I'm being murdered by way of Mentacide, a slow-kill no-touch remote electronic torture to death. By who? Five Navy Special Ops officers/directors who use several teams of SEAL, regular Navy, private Blackwater-type contractors and sometimes Air Command. I believe Air Command are actually the main over-arching entity. Why am I being killed? To cover up two years of unreal torture on a guy who was supposed to be an asset. Supposedly they've spent over $100 million easily on me, and sold me to very high levels of the military/national security as an indespensable asset to be used during x, y and z events. The 5 Special Ops officers who run the project would have to tell the higher-ups that they have totally destroyed me mentally, spiritually... totally, totally destroyed. It's not MKUltra, it's extreme torture abuse by extraordinarily ignorant controllers who tortured me worse than any common Targeted Individual I know, as bad or worse than POW's. It's a massive coverup now. The average visitor here will think this is insane. How can they kill an asset when that asset is expected to be used later? If you understand transhumanist technlogies then you get it. They'd still have the guy who exists only in the laboratory. The only good intel I have on the parties involved is the main director's first name is Donald. Another major controller is Tim.

Brief background-timeline:
pulled into the "program" starting in November 2009 with Army (fake-alien abduction/milab)
In 2011 Navy groups began using me. Air Command probably involved. Full SEALs induction started in December 2011. Navy Special Ops is involved also.  I'm used still extensively. I'm used in labs, hospitals around a city in the Southeast US.
Doctors, scientists and high command officers have no idea how bad I've been tortured the past 2 years under the SEALs group. It's not MKUltra, it's hardcore TI torture-to-suicide. It's very hideable, deniable though. The higher-ups have been massively lied to. Most of the doctors, scientists involved doubtfully know how evil and horrific the usages of me are and what they've done and are doing to mankind. They may think they are just fixing me up with super-soldier components and general studies and standard medical exams/treatments.

more info? reference book "How Black Ops Military Stopped Ascension" and below videos requesting freedom.
Government agent? If you think this site blabs too much lets talk about why I publish it and why I'm still  used as a labrat after 4 years. Why haven't I been released? Somebody's lying, somebody's covering up a very big expensive lie. That would be the people who have used me to justify opening a new center here, claiming big successes. Talk to ME, and to as many handler personnel as possible. Note that many of them have probably had their minds xxxxxx to forget or obscure it all.

Important clarification. My problem is not the NSA, DARPA, CIA, NAVY, NAVY SEALS or other groups. My problem is the the 6 to 10 main idiot controllers (NAVY SPCL OPS team) that are murdering me to cover up their massive blundered project and horrific torture of me. That is the problem. Period. There are other higher level officers who have been involved in this project who can tell the truth but they don't or they would need some kind of amnesty. Other SEAL teams can come forward too. Just what kind of blundering idiots are the majority of the main team? Watch the video below from July when they called in massive chemtrails over Capitol Hill during my visit. You got butfucked on the world stage.

Here's one of the navy special ops project directors of the black science evil soul-catcher project that murdered the human species - well it's a pretty damn close picture anyway. I HATE all nazi's. American Nazi

 New book by Sam Jenkins on Amazon:   How Black Ops Military Stopped Ascension - Transhumanism - End of the Human Era
 Request for Freedom

 Navy SEALs Psychic Warrior Milab Program

Soul-Catcher 'proof of concept' technology from two decades ago (successful)
Thoughts on Edward Snowden: It's a start. Upside - he has brought lots of attention to abuses and dark side of government programs against the American people. Negative: I haven't heard anything from him regarding electronic mind control. I doubt he knows anything about it. The entire scandal almost serves as a 'good offense' in the sense that the best defense is a good offense. The best way to hide something really big is to make a big deal out of something relatively mild in comparison. It makes a good cover.
Update Summer 2013: No doubt chemtrails are used all over the DC area but... are they sprayed directly over the Capitol Building every day, if ever? Hell if I know. But I'd think that would raise major suspicions. Watch my footage carefully. The skies are relatively clear ahead of me and then they get spayed massively directly overhead as I approach. Especially note how the chemtrails then totally clear over the Capitol Building after I leave - yet they are sprayed right over me as I am walking further down the Mall towards the Washington Monument. No I'm not paranoid or a Walter Mitty attention-seeker. This happens everywhere I go. I just happened to be at a place called Capitol Hill and they really went at it. The interesting question the reader should ask themselves is why? Why me?  Personally I think they really over-reacted during my visit to the Capitol. I don't practice Psi anymore. I abhore it now. Yes, chemtrails are used widely (in geo-engineering) and for other purposes (no further comment - figure it out) but believe me, I still get real beauties directly over me everywhere I go. All information I've published in my book and online is 100% accurate. I just want out. I refuse to be involved in human conflicts. I don't take sides. I just want out. Just go the f away. I'll keep documenting and posting stuff until you do. I welcome help from anyone who can get me out of this Seals black ops cult. Anyone.
...By the way casual reader, military and gov't personnel or whoever you might be, "our" world/planet/dimension is shunned by all intelligent, benevoloent life. Humans are being turned into remote-controlled, soul-less shadow beings; really, two dimensional shadow-like entities. That's the big picture: Expolitics. Geo-engineering/transhumanism is a means to an end. And that end was shown to you in the movie The Matrix.

So Welcome. If this site saves a few lives it's worth it. The purpose of this site is to provide a warning to sentient beings. It does not contain happy news.  If you're just looking for "Love and Light" you're in the wrong place.

I realize this site is a bit sporadic as I've had to develop it under a lot of duress and ongoing torture. It's worth it to read it though. The subject matter sounds science fiction but it's true.
Dark factions of the US Military are electromagnetically sequestering, studying, stealing human souls to:
1. Weaponize them
2. Play God in deciding who gets to re-incarnate and where a person's soul goes after they die.

This is a part of the NWO plan you probably haven't heard of. The entire population of the planet is affected. All human beings are essentially "targeted individuals."

Update 8-28-13 for any TI's who want to know how the monster torturers who run these murder programs use personnel to carry it out, see the log dated 8-28-13.

First off, to the general public: If you aren't aware of mind control and remote electronic torture (synthetic telepathy, mk-ultra, nano-implants, etc) - then read these links: Mind Control Weapons 101  , Electronic Torture   ,  Electronic Warfare - by former CIA  

To military/gov't:
I am a former "milab" and torture victim of a US Navy SEALS black ops group and am on a death sentence. I believe this group is operating out of Dobbins AFB in Marietta, GA and also uses me at the CDC in Atlanta. Any military/CIA reading this who know about these projects may think I'm just going through the breaking-in period - no, read on.

Is this stuff for real? I've never heard of anything like this.  Start here: Reality of Synthetic Telepathy

Background reading / primers:
1. EVERYBODY should download, read and spread this free pdf by Robert Duncan:   The Matrix Deciphered  . I also recommend his book Project Soul Catcher.
2. GWEN towers and HAARP:  Gwen towers - total control    GWEN, HAARP, Mandatory HDTV
3. Youtube and Google nanotechnology if you aren't familiar with this.
4. Google Electronic Warfare ("EW") and Directed Energy Weapons ("DEW") aka Electromagnetic Weapons
5. How Black Ops Military Stopped Ascension: Transhumanism - End of the Human Era   by Sam Jenkins. Among other things, this book contains some tips for MILABS and other targeted individuals.

Once you grasp the basics you''ll see that the current wars with tanks, planes and troops are a charade, distraction. Tanks, planes and troops are visuals for the masses "back home", that's all. All the economic markets are totally rigged. Most domestic terror attacks, shootings etc are faked. The entire world, all 7 billion brains on the planet, are remotely controlled. The world is enclosed in a manmade electro-magnetic frequency band, which facilitates one massive brain network. Every brain is accessible. Every human is just like a node on a computer network. It's that simple. Oh, and so are their souls. I'm no christian but.... the book of revelations comes to mind here (same thing is said in many other ancient texts too).

Anyone who is of influence or has any power is now a remotely controlled robotic puppet. End of story... except that at some point everybody will be a Stepford wife. It can't be reversed or stopped.

So I don't repeat myself, read the link in the menu's section about 2012/Mayans. It's too late. Enjoy material things, have as much sex as you can, party. There was indeed a dimensional shiift,  a downward one for the 2-legged waste products. Only a very infinitesimal amount of real organic humans will not disappear. Mankind has been written off. A beautiful Acension process was underway but idiot humans (most of them) are exempt, they've been cut off from it and, in my mind, they don't have the right architecture anyway. They're just cockroaches really, as a wacky Englishman I know calls them, "transgenic chimps." I cannot help even if I wanted. I'm totally destroyed, rotten, broken. I'm a beaten down MK-Ultra torture victim, a covert lab-rat abductee of the military industrial complex who has been sliced, diced and driven down into near nothingness and then encased in a synthetic electronic cage. I cannot even experience nature anymore.

If you are a Starseed or a mind control victim (targeted individual) please read this - and propagate it. Americans are being tortured into suicide and mental hospitals by military black ops groups. I'm one of the few that's lived to tell about this from the inside but I won't be around long now. If this simple web page saves one life it's worth it. As I'm an electronically mind-controlled torture victim existing in an electronic frequency fence, it is difficult for me to have the time and the concentration to format things such as this site as well as I'd like. At one time I was great at web design and writing. Most of the content on this site is simply spewed out from me at odd hours in the early morning after I've been awakened by a handler to a lucid nightmare or other type of torture. For me it's a form of therapy and retaliation. As well, there is useful information here for Targeted individuals, especially milabs.

I NEED HELP DISABLING THE NANO-IMPLANTS IN ME. As far as I know it's almost impossible to even jam these. I've tried magnets, faraday cages etc. A frequency jammer with hopping and spectrum spread features that goes to 5ghz or higher would probably work.

I'm a civilian living in suburbia and I've been through torture as bad or worse than GITMO prisoners. Nobody will help. The only people that can are other military units or high level politicians. I've written letters to high-ranking officers in the Pentagon in various branches of the military. I got a little bit of response from the Marine Intelligence but that's all.  I'm tortured via synthetic telepathy (syntel) and other electronic means, mostly mental. Incredibly loud ringing in my head, narcolepsy, throbbing, twitching, wild hallucincations both visual and auditory and mind movies of relatives being raped. They typically insert these in the target's mind as 'staged memories' when they wake you up at various times during the night. This is what navy seals do, at least these ones.  The treatment I got under the Army MILAB system was fantastic compared to this. The incredible thing is that these evil idiots still expect me to help them. I hate them beyond words. They, in their own words, are forcing me to suicide. The only thing that will save me is:
1) Somebody killing them. I believe there are about 30 of them total and they're at Dobbins AFB. They also take me to the CDC in Atlanta where they keep my clone.
2) A cosmic or other incredible cataclysm that knocks out the grid. With no electricity their frequency fence (force field) won't work.

They've supposedly spent over $100 million on me. It's difficult to justify killing a super-soldier.  There's a lot of red tape from what I understand. This is the only reason they haven't killed me yet. They did actually try back in September 2012 via major torture.  But they can try to force you to suicide or a mental hospital.  

I understand there's an electronic xbox or whatever type of game that idiots play called Navy SEALS black ops. Well let me tell you about the real one, a true story. A black ops SEALs group killed mankind! They inducted me around November 2011 as a milab and wanted me to be one of them. Fortunately it failed catastrophically but their usage and torture of me still goes on. These idiots tortured me psychologically via synthetic telepathy for months on end (and still do) because they simply didn't approve of my thoughts. They would tell me to stop thinking of something and repeat it incessantly and torture me literally all night long and throughout the day. I'm a shadow of my former self now. These idiots talk to you non-stop even well after the break-in phase. The mind has no firewall - once your mind is taken over i.e. injected constantly with outside voices and thoughts and dreams and feelings, to say nothing of your spiritual psychic-neural faculties being wildly experimented on and manipulated - you are no longer 'you'. It's not 'your' mind. You cease to live but rather exist as a soul-less radio-communications device. I had contact with REAL et's, benevolent ones over the past 5 years. Not the fake greys and reptilians (military staged dreams). I can tell you, mankind is fucked. There was a bifurcation. A small number of humans ascended over the past couple years but still remain physically here on this doomed planet. The archon-controlled Western military-industrial complex via geo-engineering (chemtrails), HAARP, nanotechnology and other technology cut God and celestial connections off from this planet. Humankind is indeed dead; the Mayans were correct. You are all slated to either be exterminated or turned into literal hybrid robots under total mental and physical control with your souls harvested.  Moronic "channellers" who talk about ascension make the perfect discredit cover-story for ascension. It was real indeed, "was" being the key word. Eventually, in probably a few decades at the very most, humans will not exist at all. There are just countless scenarios for electronic population control that will get out of control and destroy what's left of the already failed human experiment. What about the good et's, won't they help? Nope.  They did what they could, and spiritually evacuated various souls. The planet is quarantined now and they're just standing back watching it de-evolve in the final stages of the biggest freakshow that's ever taken place. Continuing my run-on megaparagraph, I resisted this black ops group as best I could and I have absolutely nothing to do with them or any NWO group. I utterly disavow and disassociate myself with them and their insane soul-raping mad-science evil.

"Helsingin Sanomat, the largest newspaper in Scandinavia, wrote in the September 9, 1999 issue that Scientific American magazine estimates that after the Millenium perhaps ALL people will be implanted with a "DNA microchip". How many people realize what it actually means? Total loss of privacy and total outside control of the person's physical body functions, men-tal, emotional and thought processes, including the implanted person's subconscious and dreams! For the rest of his life! " See Humanity is Implanted link to right.

All Targeted Individuals NEED to read The Silent Massacre  (in PDF) and pass it around - It answers scores of questions and can help save your life.

I'm a bitter guy. The Navy has ripped off my soul and extrasensory frequencies with multiversal ascension forces and is using it for their own purposes. They could broadast this into others to make them think they are having a 'Christ second coming' kind of experience.

David Icke and Alex Jones of InfoWars nail the transhumanist agenda and how horrible and "ugly" it is - the end of man, the end of nature.  I am not a fan of Mr. Jones but he does a great job here. There's an InfoWars magazine issue headlined "The End of Humanity; Rise of the Robots." This gets good around the 23 minute mark and onward. Note, video is mistitled 'total financial collapse'. 
Transhumanist agenda, robotizing of humans in rapid progress

The Grinch that stole Ascension: the archon-controlled Western military. The whole planet is essentially being cut off from God and the heavens through technology that the brainless slave-public can't even fathom.  

Read a post from Mia, another Starseed being used by Black Ops military as a lab rat. She is absolutely correct.
Another Starseed Lab Rat
Doctor, nurse or scientist?
The entire world and cosmos are enemies of this Navy group of monsters who have tortured me beyond imagination and destroyed my life.  They truly represent no group of humans and are enemies of other NWO factions. Their experiments and uses of me will backfire on them catastrophically. They've brought unspeakable harm to the entire planet. All enemies of theirs are friends of mine.
Contact email: nonukesever at

End of story.


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Humanity is implanted

MUST READ for TI'S - Silent Massacre

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Starseed Pledge

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Synthetic Telepathy primer

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